Back Again...

It's has been a long 1 month break from blogging. Many things have been happening and my life is just so interesting now.

Recently, i have been on a eating spree with a group of friends from church. We meet every week to spend some time eating and looking for good dessert places. Some of our en devours are like peranakan, botak jones, mummy's food, julian's cooking, BBQ, nepalese and many more to come. From a just meet once a week kind of meeting, now it has become where we meet almost everyday. haha! just so interesting to see how a community can be started just so easily. I realised that human beings always crave for relationship. That's how God have made us to be. We were created to have a relationship with Him and because of that very nature, we also want to have a relationship with everyone we know. (The relationship i'm talking about here is purely a social rather than a romantically one.) So, i believe that God wants us to have relationships with everyone that we know. I guess there is no more excuses of "i just am not that kind of a person." Let's be on this relationship discovering journey and allow God to show us how much He can use our lives if we live for His purpose.

Just like i said in the first part of this entry, lots of things have happened. Some distressing, some happening and some joyful. For the distress part, my favourite aunty sally aka csm was diagnosed with having leukemia. Another case of this over the last 2 years, aunty lydia, kangfei and now aunty sally. I can so clearly hear God shouting, "Live Your Life Right!!!!" i realised that God can also put me in the same situation and take me home just like that but i know i'm not done with my life here yet. The promises and the destiny that He had for my life is not fulfilled yet and i know my time is not up yet. I must live my life right and according to His plan.

Some joyous things for now. I'm at the end of my course! hooray!!!! It has been a long 8 months. I guess time passes real fast while you are studying and suddenly you are faced with your final exams and your graduating project. For my graduating project, i'm going to do a article on the church music of today. Something that is really precious on my heart. Something that i want to do for the rest of my life. "Church Music"

The new ky church building is almost done and we are in the midst of preparing to shift back. I'm beginning to feel all the excitement of God has for ky. New ky people into the new ky building. I just can't wait for the first note to be played in the new sanctuary and the worship that is going to explore from it. A long wait. 1 year and 10 months to be exact. so exciting!

Finally, i'm back in ministry. I'm beginning to be involve in ministry again and more focused on worship this time round. Ready to follow the call God has on my life and ready to pursue it with all i have. I was reading Darlene Zschech's newest book, "The kiss of heaven" and it's giving me so much insight on pursuing the dream that God has for me. One sentences says this, "whatever it is that you truly value, that is where you'll place your time, energy, attention, finances, love and devotion." I'm slowly understanding what this mean. It means that you will give everything to the thing that you are passionate about! It's about God and it's about giving Him everything! It also means that when He calls you to a certain ministry, that where you give everything you have to build that ministry. What big revelation! haha! I am asking God to lead me and allow me to pursue this passion that He have given to me. "Papa God, i'm ready!"

There is just too much photos to upload now. I will try to slowly upload it and hopefully allow you to see the happenings in my life. For now, i need to sleep and get enough rest for a soccer match tomorrow morning at 10am. Hope you enjoyed reading this entry and the same old words, hope it will trigger you into thinking of your passion and your destiny in God. Adious...

Made To Worship...

Made To Worship
Chris Tomlin

(Verse)
Before the day
Before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun
God on high
Stepped down into time
And wrote the story of His love for everyone

(Pre-Chorus)
He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

(Chorus)
You and I were made to worship
You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I choose to believe
Then you and I will see who we were meant to be

(Verse)
All we are
And all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive
Brought to life
We open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

(Pre-Chorus)
He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

(Bridge)
Even the rocks cry out
Even the heavens shout
At the sound of His Holy name
So let every voice sing out
Let every knee bow down
He's worthy of all our praise

This is one post that have been on my heart for a long time ever since the first time i listened to this song. Look at the words and see the heart. It's the outpouring of a worshipper. Not the constant urge of being in the limelight or on stage but the neverending push to worship the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

The chorus give us the summary of our life purposes on earth. We were made to worship. That's the reason why God created this earth. Called to love the Creator God and those that He created. We are forgiven and free when we embrace surrender. When we choose to believe, then we will see who we were meant to be. So will you be a worshipper today and forever more? I am created to worship and i will live this life of worship forever.

(Chorus)
You and I were made to worship
You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I choose to believe
Then you and I will see who we were meant to be

Finally, i am back!

I'm finally back to the place where i belong. The familiar feeling is coming back and i'm enjoying every single bit of it.

It has been a mixed feelings for the last few days. Received news that a pastor in the US was accused of having monetary sexual relationship with a male prostitute and also using of a sex enhancing drug. The church that the pastor served at is actually a church that is well known for their worship and also the connection that they have with Focus On The Family. In my mind, i know it's end times. The enemy is trying to bring everyone that he sees as a threat down and trying to break the unity of the world church body.

Couldn't sleep last night. Was tossing around in bed and felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to pray for Pastor Ted and the church. I'm prayed and finally got to sleep around 4.30am. I can feel the feeling of being a watchman. Prayer is anytime and anywhere. Be sensitive to the spirit.

Had the first jamming after our worship cell and it was a good time. It was tiring but fulfilling. Although we only did one song (many times over and over again!) but i guess we learned lots of things. How to gel as a team, patience and lots of understanding of each other's strength. It was fun! Lord i pray that You will give us more of these kind of times...

This coming saturday is going to be our first worship seminar. I'm looking forward to hearing God and hearing His heartbeat for worship in my life and in Kum Yan. It's going to be a significant time. All the 6 congregations will come together as a worship ministry of Kum Yan, listen to the same message and get the same heart for worship.

Attended my first ministry leaders meeting on saturday after a long break. It was a intimate time. Once again, i'm back and ever so ready to serve again but this time, i'm determined to stay focused. I'm not going to let anything deter me away from God's call on my life. Nothing gonna change it, no one gonna take it away. So much new things, so many new leadings. We are gonna take this world by storm! Watch out! world here we come!

Pictures of my new church! 1 more month to having lifts again!

Ground floor

Night View

Nice shot...

Quote Of The Day
"I'm determine to stay focus. Are you?"

More exciting times...

It's getting more and more exciting. I can hear papa God saying, "It's time now! Now!" I'm seeing so much of God's call for KY and YC, and the call to this joshua generation on me. I need to be a watchman for this generation and to make sure that God's words is released to this generation.

I'm understanding the whole worship journey that God have allowed me to walk and understand the whole reason behind it.

From the beginning where playing in worship was a showcase of my gift, a venue where i can make myself feel good and look good, now it has become a place where i know i'm serving God, an understanding of what worship is, knowing that everytime i get to stand up on stage to play, it is by the grace of God. It was such a long journey. God have to take 7 years to teach me that but i'm thankful for it because it is such a precious journey. I would not want to trade anything for it. thank You papa God for the time You took to teach me such an important lesson.

There is so much stuff that needs to be done to fulfill my destiny but i know that papa God will give me the strength and anointing to fulfill it. It's not going to be by my own strength or might but everything will come by the strength and guidance of papa God. I am waiting. Still waiting.

Have you ever wonder if God will give anointing to allow you to play an instrument just instantly? I believe He does but also in it comes the responsibility to practice it. Some of us might receive the anointing and some of us might not. (some of us might not even ever play an instrument despite how much we try!) For those who receive the anointing, thank God for it. It's for a purpose that God release that anointing. Pray and ask God to continue to grow you in that instrument and give you even more anointing to play and minister with it. Many of us usually slacken after we get to a certain proficiency level and is contented with it. Now to address those that doesn't receive the anointing to play instantly. What can we do? I present to you the five steps.

Step 1 - ask God for the anointing!
Because in His word, it says "ask and you will receive" so when we ask, we receive. Now this is the difficult part. If we ask and we receive, then what makes us different from those who receive the anointing to play instantly? My explaination is that everyone have a different anointing and God chooses to work in different ways. In some of us, it requires the second step. Here it is.

Step 2 - Practice, Practice and Practice.
This is the only physical way to improve in your instrument apart from asking God for anointing. In the bible times, the tribe of Levi was chosen to be the levites for the temple of God and to minister to the Lord. The levites of the tribe of Levi did not serve in the temple till they were 30 years old. That means, they were trained from young till the time they were 30 before they actually serve in the tabernacle of God. So it is biblical to be trained and to spend time to master your instruments to a level where it is giving God the best that we have. Thank God that we are not living in the old bible times because if that's the case, then lots of us will not be serving! (including me!) Asking God for anointing, in my experience, will speed up the process of you mastering the instrument. It has been proven in my life. I asked God for anointing and within a year, i was able to play in worship proficiently.

Step 3 - Ask people for help.
Many times, we need some help to move on to the next level of playing our instruments. Many times, we try to figure something which we don't understand without knowing that asking for help from someone that is more experience in playing that instrument will speed up the process. Here, we are actually dealing with pride issues. Asking for help doesn't means we are being incompetent. Asking for help means that we are willing to learn more and is teachable. Don't ever stop learning and most importantly, don't ever stop asking for help. There will always be someone better than you in this world.

Step 4 - Be accountable to someone.
Be accountable to someone for the progress of your skills. That person can be anyone but most preferably someone who is in the worship ministry and best if it's someone who is proficient in your instrument, godly and believe in your call. This will allow him or her to gauge where you are in terms of skills and your progress. He or she also serve as a spiritual mentor where spiritual inputs are being given too! Being in the worship ministry need both spiritual and physical (skills) excellency.

Step 5 - Stay close to your call.
This is the most important step. We can lose sight of our call and the reason why we are practicing our instrument. It's sticking close to your call will allow you to go through some of the toughest time when practicing your instrument. The fact is if it's easy to pick up an instrument then everyone one will be doing it but face the fact, it's not easy. So stay close to your call and more importantly, God.

That's the 5 steps that i have learnt over the years and i hope it will benefits you in a way or another. This can be applied to anything that you are doing. Working, studying, anything!

I hope that everyone that reads this will begin to think about their call and if there is anything that the Lord is showing you, share with me and i hope to be able to pray with you.

Quote Of The Day
"Know your call and focus on it."

Exciting times...

I am living in exciting times. I can feel and sense it in my spirit. So many things are happening. I'm sensing this excitment within my spirit and it's just waiting to burst out!

It was a long week. My last term of my Diploma started on monday. Just can't wait for this to end and bid farewell to secular studying. HaHa! Just can't wait. 4 modules this term plus a graduation project that is going to take alot out of me. Thank God that at least the modules this term are more interesting and more practical hands on stuff. The lecturers are also getting more interesting. You will learn more as i write more about them as the term passes.

Had two worship meetings this week. The first one was on tuesday which was held at my house. Cooked dinner for the committee. Carbonara, Salad, Clam Chowder and Garlic Bread sets the menu. We had fun at dinner. After that, it was down to real business. More work to be done and more things to talk on. Had a long meeting which stretch from 7pm till 11pm. Long meeting with more to be done which warrant another meeting on friday.

We met again on friday and this time round, we manage to do more and actually confirmed some stuff for the YC worship cell which is going to happen on the 29th of Oct. Not really finished with planning but at least we have the skeleton to the meeting. Can't wait for the 29th to have the worship cell.

I am beginning to find myself in familiar grounds again but this time round with more zeal and determination to stay focus and closer to God. It's time to step out again and again words are ringing in my head. Just as i'm typing this mail, i'm hearing God say "the first step to your destiny is to step out." What profound words. Sometimes i just don't understand why God can't speak to us in a full understandable, simple sentence. But it's the beauty of relationship with God, understanding what He says requires faith and it's faith building for us to keep hearing papa God say all these things. It requires faith for us to hear and obey the things without knowing what the next step is. I'm really enjoying this process. Hearing God, follow Him and then see the picture. And the whole cycle goes all over again. I'm enjoying this so much. Follow Him closely and wait on Him. I'm praying about the next step and see where God leads me.

Psalm 91 says "He who dwell in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty." This is the promise of God. The moment we dwell in Him, we will be in His will. Nothing can separate us, nothing will draw us away. I used to think that worship fatigue will happen if we constantly play for worship but now i realise that it only happen if it becomes a job rather than serving papa God. Think about those who leads worship every sunday. Don't they feel burn out? Don't they have times that they don't feel like leading? Of course they do but it is that intimacy and closeness with God that gives them the strength to overcome all those emotions. I read a Paul Baloche's article recently and he was talking exactly the same thing. We need that closeness and intimacy with papa God to sustain us through the times of serving and giving of our lives to Him. Serving doesn't become a job, it becomes a lifestyle. It is a lifestyle of serving God that we need and not a ministry calling. Everyone of us is called to live that lifestyle of serving just like how Jesus came to be a Servant King. He served us because He loves us and that's the biblical principle of leadership in the Kingdom of God. The first will be the last and the last will be first. What is your principle of serving? Is it biblical?

Quote Of The Day

Decide today whether you want to serve or be served. I have decided to serve and i'm happily living it out. Choose for yourself.

I stand in awe of His glory...

I saw the most magnificient worship yesterday night. A worship that links the old hebrew style with the current modern worship. A worship that unite the generations together, a worship that glorifies the Father. It has started. The revolution has started.

It was the Feast of The Tabernacle yesterday. It feels like a celebration because i finished my exams on that same day and there is a actual reason to celebration but more than that, it is a celebration of going into the promised land, the rising up of a new generation that will usher in the presence of Jesus into the land of Singapore. It was a time of loud praises and dance. A worship of many languages marks the day. It's a worship that i will never forget. I saw the kind of worship that is just a small glimpse of heaven but enough to put me in awe. Imagine heaven's worship.

I feel like i'm starting to walk into the life that God have set for me. My destiny and purpose on this earth. WORSHIP. This is my call. So much things and words have been spoken. I am praying for my next step in life. Big decisions and many many implications.

Some things about my songwriting. I am beginning to get directions for it as i stick close to papa God. Sense God wanting to accelerate the process. Was talking to Sharon (coordinator for Feast of the Tabernacle) on wednesday and she somehow didn't know why but felt led to share it with me. She was sharing how God wants a new song from the land which has the flavour of Singapore in it. Just like how God gave Isreal the hebrew style of worship, He wants to give Singapore her own style of worship. The moment she shared that, my heart clicked and i knew straight away that God is speaking to me. I don't take that lightly because it is something that God is saying to me and i know He is giving me directions on how to write. Shortly after that, i spoke to audrey (walking on water's drummer) and she too talk to me about worship in singapore and how singapore is actually proficient enough to match up to the proficiency of overseas worship band. My heart totally agree with her because it is also a cry on my heart to see Singapore bless other nations with worship songs. I know the time is now and God is already raising up a new group of songwriters to write for Him. So rise up songwriters of the joshua generation! It's time to speak with our writings.

In a email sent to the core worship committee of YC, Pastor Lilian wrote this, "We are in the process of building a huge and powerful Joshua Generation Worship Team to usher in the King of Glory!!!" What a powerful statement! Listen up! Joshuas. It's time to rise up! It's time to be proactive. Know your destiny and identity. This is a generation that is raised up to worship and bring His presense in. Be serious about worship. It is our offering.

I have a leading to go with Rev. George to Israel next year for the prayer conference and to be part of the 120 joshuas that he talked about. The moment he shared about that, my heart jumped and i thank God for answering my prayer. I ask God to let me to go to Israel at least once in my life to see to see the children of Israel and immediately He opened a door for me. He is the God who hears and see our desires. There is other visions that i receive in relation to this prayer concert but it's not time yet to share. I am excited. Very excited. It's going to be a exciting time in the year to come.

"God, lead me as i lay my life down at Your altar. This life is Yours and Yours only. Use this life to bring Your glory to earth as it is in heaven. Use it in anyway as You deem fit and use it for Your sole purpose. My heart cries out to You and i'm desperate for Your glory to be shown in my life. Let my life be a sweet sweet offering to You. I dedicate my life to You and i pray that You would use it to advance Your worship on this earth."

I am ready to usher in the presence of Jesus into the nation of Singapore. Are you ready?

The start of a new season...

It's 1 more day before the end of my term 3 exams. Then it will be the final term before i get my diploma. It is going to end in 3 months time. Thank God for all His grace and mercy to bring me through this whole season of studying.

It is the start of a new season in my life. A start to new things that are happening in my life or rather, new directions.

I finally came to the end of my "ministry break". No ministry for the last 1 year has allowed me to understand more of God and His purpose in my life. Understanding everything that happened in my life that is going to play a part in the destiny that God have given me. The past 1 year have been a time of great struggles but also a time where i stand in awe of God at the end of it.

A breakdown of my journey so far...

1st 7 years of my christian life - God used it to allow me to love Him and to know Him and His character.

Last year - God used it to make me understand the meaning of loving Him. The real essense of what it means to love Him. He took this time to drill in the very essense of love and knowing Him, that is because of who He is. Not because of the ministry that i'm doing or the events that i'm running but it comes down to loving Him because of WHO HE IS and WHAT HIS CHARACTER IS.

Two questions that God asked me during this period was, "Will you still love me if I don't give you ministry anymore in your life and all you do is love Me and know Me?" and "Are you willing to be a fool for Me?"

All i can answer is "yes God, knowing You and loving You is all i need and nothing is more important than that. I am willing to be a fool for You! I don't care what other people say or think, all i know is that when i follow You, You take delight in me."

The coming years - God is leading me into a time where i need to follow Him closely. He wants to speed up the process of me fulfilling His destiny and to do that, i need to follow Him closely. I am feeling a sudden urgency to consecrate myself and to keep my spirit sensitive to Him. I am getting some directions about my next step but cannot reveal them now. I will share more in due time but for now, just pray along side me.

The next phase...

At this moment, i am serving in the worship ministry which is part of the plan that God have shown me for the next phase of my life. This is the ministry which i know that God is calling me to and at this time, i do not know what and when and how i'm going to fulfill the destiny that God have given me but i'm following closely to Him and allowing Him to lead me.

I hope that you are also feeling the excitements that i have in my heart. Initially, i felt that what God has shown me to be too big and large for me but through some conversations, God is assuring me that if i follow Him closely then He will show me how to do it. I know that the time is now and now. It is not next time or have passed but it is now! Now!

This have been a journey that i have been walking since the church camp in june. Everything is falling into place and i'm seeing day by day the little pieces being pieced together to form the bigger picture.

I will share more on my next post which i hope will be on sat after "The Feast Of The Tabernacle" on friday. Hopefully by then, i will receive even more and be able to share with you even more.

Don't worry guys, i am not being spiritual here. I am being myself. This is who i am and what i do. This is me...

Quote Of the Day

Follow God and follow closely. Only then can you excel at what you do.

The Start Of Something New...

Today was a significant day. I saw the beginning of a revival...

Went to the hospital today after hearing that one of my mum's friend (uncle fat man but he is skinny lor...) was going to be baptized. He is one of those uncles would spend lots of time at my dad's store. For the first time in my life, i saw my mum lay hands and prayed. I am amazed. I ever expect to see it. This is the first convert that my mum actually played a part in. Somehow, many people from my dad's store is starting to go to church and getting saved. I realized that sometimes, it takes a man at his lowest to see the truth but i also believe that God will heal uncle fat man. I know deep down, he has saw the power of Christ and i know that one day, his whole family will be save too. I see the power of salvation flowing through my mum. She is going to bring about a great revival at the store. My family is going to get saved and as for me and my house, we gonna serve the Lord. One day, my father will come to know Jesus. I know it's coming soon. really soon. My dad is going to watch a video on miracle healing given to him by one of the uncles from the store who is now attending His Sanctuary. Pray, pray hard.

The curse of the char siew pau...

Yesterday, with my first bite on a char siew pau, i heard a crack sound and my crown tooth started to hurt. The pain was so unbearable that i almost fainted on the bus. Spent the whole night waking up and taking painkillers. Went to see uncle henry this afternoon and received the bad news. My tooth split into half all the way to my nerve. He had to pull the pain part out and see if he can salvage the other half. Then the second bad news came. I have to take the whole tooth out cause it actually crack all the way till the bone area. thankfully, uncle henry made it painless. i can't believe that a char siew pau actually can do so much damage. I am amazed. No more char siew pau for me.


Finally no more pain for the night. It's just weird that i have to bite on one side cause the food will not be chewed if i bite on the side where my tooth is taken out. oh well... getting old...

In another 3 more days, it will be the start of my exams! once again, i will go into exile and you might or might not see any updates on this blog. perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

Quote Of The Day

"When you bite into a char siew pau, bite with care..."

Back Again!

finally back after a long absence!

Looking at my last post dated 14 September which is 10 days ago and i realised how long it is since i last blogged. I decided to start blogging again to share more of my life with everyone.

For the last 10 days, many things have happened and many lives have been changed, including mine.

It was a long last week of school as presentations and essays were a big part of my life. Rushing for presentations and deadlines for essay took the most out of me and at the end of everything, i was dead tired. thank papa God, it is all over now. The next busy time will be exams which will be in 1 week's time. While in the midst of all these, i realised how much i need papa God in my life. His grace and mercies. His mercies are new every morning is the only thing that brought me through the last week.

This week, there was another period of grieve. On tuesday morning, i received news that mervyn's dad passed away suddenly. Received the news in the morning and we were there in the evening to offer our support and condolences. I spent the next 4 days helping out at the wake and offering my support to merv and his family. In those 4 days, i manage to know merv's mum a little more and also his aunties. Every night, i saw how close this YC family is, offering help in doing little things and giving support to merv. YC-ers just came and did their part, getting drinks for guests, opening doors, traffic marshalling, moving tables and chairs. Everyone just did what they can. It was a testimony. It was a showcase of papa God's family. Somehow, relationship building is part of the YC giftings. I never expect the little things that i do can bless someone so much. Heard about merv's mum's comments on me, i was blessed. not because of my abilities, but because of papa God's grace in my life. The glory all goes back to papa God. Had lunch with the family after the funeral on saturday and it was a good time to a closure for the long week.

From a time of grieve, it quickly changed to a time of celebration within a hour. It was charis' wedding on saturday and some of us attended the wedding at cornerstone church. it was a good time seeing her again and could really see how happy she is to get married. it was nice catching up with her and uncle timothy. After that, we went back to church to hang-out for a short while before proceeding to sentosa, palawan beach, for some north indian food at the invitation of Aunty Sally. it was good and the food was fantastic. after that, it was home sweet home to catch up on lost sleep over the last week.

Sunday as usual was spent in church. Arrived in church around 1.35pm and waited for service to start. The speaker today was Brent Chambers and his son, Nathan. I was blessed by his words and his music.

Had a bite at kopitiam after service before going back to church for trainee jamming. Because of some miscommunication, we didn't do the intended training and did some jamming instead. It was good i guess.

Dinner was at Plaza Singapura's Long John Silver. Got home and decided to go online for a short while and well it ended up with me writing this blog entry. By the time i'm done with writing this blog, it was 1.15am on monday morning. i am tired. i need to sleep. goodnight...

some pictures of the 10 days of exile...

Me and May May...

Mr Wong connecting with his metrosexual side...
(bag courtesy of regina aka crooked wong)

Me once again playing with dana's glasses...
Come on! at least i look good...

Quote of The Day
"Life is for fulfilling the greater purpose. Find that purpose."

Finally, it's over...

after one week of project-headaching (came up with my own term), i'm done with all my project presentations (infact today was my last presentation) and lectures will be done by next week! after that, it will be preparation time for exams. exams will run from 2nd - 15th October. please pray for me and all my classmates. 4 modules this term. The dynamics of mass communication, techniques of professional speaking and writing, social behavioural studies and human mass communications. no mcqs, only essays for exam questions. time to put into writing, the stuff that i have learnt the last 10 weeks. the matter of fact that time is passing so fast! just a blink of the eye and i'm at the end of my second last term in MDIS. soon, it will be over and then it's time for the next phase of life. passing too fast! but with lots of things i learnt. i would say it's a worthwhile time of my life. it will always be a written part of my life. it cannot and will not be erased from my life.

life have been good and i'm coming to the end of my "sabbatical". lots of words from papa God and i know for sure that it's time for me to serve again. serve where and what? worship will be my first priority. time to step up on the calling that papa God have given me in worship. alot of times, i wanted to be someone that is able to do many things and any thing. that is a true statement and i also know that for the next season, papa God wants me to work on my calling and get equipped in the area of worship. leading worship and getting a understanding of biblical worship. Combining both the Word of papa God and youth worship into one will be one of the goals. word-focused, spirit-led, youthful worship for the young generations of today.

church building is finally up! it's beautiful and majesty. most importantly, it remind me of the greatness and faithfulness of papa God to kum yan and me. a place where i will never leave on my own accord, a place where my roots will be rooted deep, a place where my family and future generations will serve and love. the building blend into the surrounding smu campus but still retaining it's uniqueness. i love the building but more importantly, i love my church.

Some pictures of the new church building

Side view of my church

Close up front view

Nice front view

saw the building at night and it was breathe-taking. it look so nice and warm. papa God is leading us into a new place. preparing us for the national calling. just like what Rev. George said at family camp, there is a national calling and kum yan is part of that calling. i believe in that call totally!

16 more days to the end of my rest...

Busy week...

oh well... another exodus from blogging the last few days. can't help it... really really busy and tired...

after reading my post on sunday, i figure out that most people will be thinking, "so what is alvin going to do next?". to be honest, i am still praying but got some initial ideas for the next phase of life.

as usual... summary for the awol days again...

Monday

out shopping with brian and ben wu. became brian's fashion consultant. met eugene with the both of them after that for dinner at the hk cafe at novena. while we were there, the novena church, which was opposite, was having some praise and worship concert and the songs that they were singing were like ours. there is a revival out there.

Tuesday

was out in town with classmates after their presentation. haha... everyone of them were in formal wear and it's quite a sight to see them in formal. went to town to hang out and as usual, went to play cs. this is like one of our favourite activity. hahaha... left the group around 5pm to pick melody up for eileen's farewell dinner with the rest of the blue moo-ers. dinner was at chongqing steamboat near bugis and after dinner dessert, tcc.

Wednesday

full day of school and rushed home to get my bball stuff after class. basketball was fun and mr john heng actually joined us! hahaha... played till 10 plus before proceeding to ms dawn tay's house to surprise her for her birthday... hahaha... it was a fun time... hehehe... surprise she may be but the smell of durian will fill her house for at least a few days... hahahaha!!!!!!!!! 7 boxes of durians for the record...

Thursday

didn't go to school today cause i wasn't feeling well and needed the sleep. woke up around 12pm and had my favourite fishball noodle at block 65. haha... it's been a long time since i actually had it. it was familiar... the taste, the texture. met uncle henry at 5pm for discipleship. it was fun. nice talking to and learning from uncle henry. got home and cooked my own dinner. i like my dinner. honey glazed chicken and carbonara. delicious!

in the session today with uncle henry, i learnt so much about discipleship. i realised that discipleship isn't just about teaching but it's also relational. Jesus' model for discipleship was first, spend time with Him and then go out and actions. so it's all about spending time with Him. it was such a revelation. now i understand the basis of discipleship.

i am enjoying my life right now and i know it's a time of rest for me. i also know that very soon, it's time for me to step out again and do the things that papa God have called me to do. before that happens, i want to enjoy my rest. so i will only think about it when october come. anything before that, out of my mind...

tomorrow's going to be a long day. full day lesson and then cell group in the evening. papa God, i need strength from You. light my path and show me Your way!

Quote Of The Day

it's all about relationship and spending time with Jesus...

My last month of rest...

one more month to the end of my sabbatical rest and so much things is happening once again. AWE night and today's sermon really set the stage for the ending of my sabbatical.

i saw what was my passion yesterday at AWE. youth people worshipping papa God the way they understand and papa God loves it. i saw so many young people giving their all in worshipping papa God and how worship can actually change lives. the prayers that was prayed so many years ago for them are beginning to take place. praying for God to meet them in worship, worshipping in a way that is relevant to them, raising up youth ministries in the cac churches that will be relevant to the youths that they are reaching out to, youth ministries will be fun to the youths, papa God will be real in their lives rather than a god that is spoken to them by their leaders, are all being fulfilled now. one day, we will see an army of cac youths taking the arenas of the secular world by storm.

today we had Rev. George Annadorai speaking at yc. i know it was a anointed time cause it was today that set the stage for my sabbatical end. he talked about the connection between singapore's destiny and yc's destiny. it was co-related. the israelites were circumcised before they entered the promised land not because papa God wanted them to sacrifice something but it's because by circumcision, it prophetically symbolized the coming under the blood (which was referring to the blood of Jesus or coming under papa God's authority) and when they went into Jericho, it was because of the blood that they were all unharmed. no israelites were harmed but everyone on the side of jericho was killed. entering Jericho symbolized the founding of Israel as a nation and it was considered the national day of Israel. when they entered jericho, it was after 40 years and coincidentally, Singapore is 41 this year which means that like Israel, Singapore is entering into her promised land from this moment on. (1st similarity) when Israel entered jericho, the next things that they are going to encounter is the 7 giants of the land which is the 7 different nations or people occupying the promised land. what Singapore is also encountering is the 7 arenas of the nation. (arts and entertainment, business, church, dental and healthcare, education, family, government) (2nd similarity) i was amazed by this prophetic message. i know that papa God definitely placed this message in Rev. George for ky and yc. i know that papa God wants everyone of us to be "circumcised" and be able to move over to the other side of the gate unharmed. God knows that if anyone is to pass through the gate without being circumcised, they will be killed and be struck down by satan. Because satan will use everything that we have done wrong, without confessing our sins, ever since we became a christian to bring us down. in Malachi 3:16 talks about papa God writing down everything in a book of rememberance which records all our good deeds and satan also has one which records all the bad things that we had done. how come? (satan cannot pick on the things that we have done wrong before we become christians because the moment we receive Jesus as our savior, all those sins are already paid for but the sins that we commit after becoming christians will be recorded unless we confess those sins already) when israel entered into the promised land, it was the young people that was leading it. Joshua and Caleb were the caretakers of the new generation which was born in the desert. so none of them were circumcised and that's why they had to be circumcised before they enter the promised land.

so everyone of us need to be under the blood. when Rev. George asked for response, i knew that i had to response. it was significant. i knew i had a breakthrough today. it was time. time to raise the gear again. time to be fervent and time to be spirit-led.

the stage is set and so clear now. step up on the gear and move faster. i know i have to move myself. not about emotions anymore, it's about answering and fulfilling the call of papa God on my life. flowing with the nation and church's destiny. it's all co-related. everything is linked.

it was a time of recollections of papa God's words to me and also a time where i recommit myself back to Him. time to start working again. time to serve again.

Summary of Saturday and Sunday

Saturday
9am - Soccer
6pm - Guitar teaching @ woodlands
8.30pm - AWE

Sunday
1.30pm - YC
5pm - jamming
9pm - dinner with ben and ah lap @ PS' Carls Junior

Quote Of The Day
when papa God moves, make sure you are ready to move together with Him.

Day of having fun... hahaha...

oh well, looking at my title for this entry, you would have guessed that i had a great day! haha...

went to school today but realised that i actually didn't need to be there! haha... but the good thing is that i actually got my marks! i got a 8/10 for process of my project and 8/10 for my class participation. haha! cool! it pays to be there even when you are not required to. haha! had some fun in class talking to people and playing bluff... hahaha... then lunch was at the malay stall outside mdis along the row of shops under the flats. the food was fantastic! it is so good that now i totally refuse to eat from the malay stall in school. haha...

afternoon was ms benita's class. because it was a tutorial class, attendance was little and so she actually had a time of talking at the end of the class. we sat around and she started asking us where we were from and what we want to do. hahaha... it was like a career counselling session. haha... telling us to do what we really like and want, rather than just go with what we study and then spend our whole life there. hahaha... it was good... a really good time... i'm beginning to wonder if she's actually part of the kingdom. hmm... food for thoughts...

saw shermeen's email about her selling her "treasures" to raise fund for her volunteer trip to israel. called her and had a short conversation with her. manage to encourage her a little and also to tell her that whatever she is doing is something many people can't do. even in selling her "treasures", it was a sign of giving up everything for the cause. money can always be earn back but money will not be able to buy the experiences that she is going to get from this volunteer stint. seriously, if papa God calls me, i'm also ready to do it too...

after class was a trip down to the airport to send ben soh off... got there, had popeyes and then went to pray for him. we did it in a rush cause some of us actually need to go to naval base primary school for the combined sports day with the english congregation. that's why we didn't send ben soh off at the gate.

got to naval base primary school around 7.45pm and they were about to start. just in time... hahaha... thank papa God! haha... it was nice to see so many kumyanites coming together to play some sports... hahaha... we had floorball, line soccer, table tennis and board games for those that are less sporty. hahaha... it was just so heart-warming. all the families coming together to enjoy one another's company. having fun together is seriously what's lacking in the families of today. many families just doesn't come together to have fun and spend time together... i was tired... i didn't play any games but actually spent some time playing with chavelle and it was tiring... hahaha... but also contributing to it was edwin. (best friend!) haha... a small kid... had fun... hahaha... took pictures with jo and then erica... hahaha... waiting for jo to send me the pictures so that i can put it up here. took a ride after that from chao to school with jiahao so that we can take a bus home from there. hahaha...

on my way home on bus 61 from school with jiahao, we saw a accident near my house and it was a real bad one... the front part of the truck was actually smashed to the brim and there was only a small gap between the front and the back... the driver was stuck in the seat and the last i saw, they were trying to get him out. when i saw it, i began to start thinking of life.

i realised how short life can be. how life can just be taken away from you just in a matter of second. we never know when we will go back to meet papa God . this is not to live in fear but to understand that every second that we are still alive is by grace and it's a gift to be alive. the fact that no one can be sure whether one can wake up from one's sleep tomorrow just prove it. haha... i mean if papa God wants us back, nothing can change that but the only thing we can do is to know that even if we leave now, we will have no regrets and that we have lived our lives to the fullest. so live life and live it well. live it to the fullest and live it in the best way you can.

so today's summary will be one of life. learned so much about life today from papa God. is this a sign? i wonder...

Quote Of The Day
know your life. only you will know whether it's the best that you're living now...

Back again... My long tiring week...

finally back after a short break from blogging.... haha... actually i was tired and didn't managed to blog the last few days...

well.. a short summary of monday to wednesday...

school was happening everyday and non-stop actions with the lecturers. hahaha... did a presentation on monday for TPSW on Big Mac. got a 9/10 for presentation. haha... good enough... 2 down, last 2 to go for this term. went down to town on tuesday and wednesday. haha... as usual, it was crazy times... hahaha... wednesday was funny... class finished early cause the afternoon class lecturer was on mc. so we decided to go to town and chill... went down to far east plaza for lunch first. it was a real big group... 14 of us... hahaha... then it started pouring and i figure out that wednesday bball was going to be cancelled. so hang out all the way till like 11pm. hahaha... it was a seriously fun time... activities include shopping, xbox, laning, dinner and smoking (for the smokers and many times...). got home, was too tired and then fell asleep... hahaha...

jiewei as usual... looking pretty...

the 3 little pigs?

laptop stack... rasul, michelle and mine...

my laptop butler for the day... shy...

as usual, thursday is rest day for me and i stayed home till the late afternoon. it was raining non-stop and just too crazy to go out in that rain. it finally stop around 4pm and by then, i was hungry (cause i was too lazy to walk downstairs to buy my lunch.) had a turkish kebah at parkland before going to sim lim to pick up some stuff... met some of the church guys for dinner at meridian's food court for dinner after that. hahaha... got home and decided to write this entry to at least make up for the last few days of AWOL.

had a good talk with jiewei and rasul on tuesday while sitting down at penisular for dinner and then drinks afterwards at TCC. talked about life and how money is hard to come by. i realised that both of them actually know their limits when it comes to money and also know the hard work that is put in to earn money. haha... they actually shared about their job working experience during the 'O' level waiting period. haha... but i guess it's good that they know now rather than when they come out to work at the end of their studies... cool stuff...

it has been a long 4 days for me. hearing from papa God have been lots. understanding why papa God only allowed me to study secularly now and how He had changed my mindset so much that i don't even realise it until i talk to people. am knowing even more now that my call to worship needs to be fulfiled. can almost hear papa God just saying "GO!" am just waiting for this mass comm course to finish and then be prepared to see where papa God leads me to! hahaha... i am excited... mass comm? worship? where's the link? there is a link... communicating worship to the masses... i know now... speak to the masses it is... i am ready to go... "here am i, send me!!! me! me! me! i am available" shouts from the inside of my heart!

Quote Of The Day
money is alway hard-earned... make full use of it and use it wisely....

Record Breaking Blue Moo Friday and Long Hot Saturday...

was too tired to post anything yesterday after blue moo. this is getting more and more frequent. oh no...

Friday

finally mr jason wong have left for canada for his exchange program. woke up at 12pm and immediately wash up and left to meet jh at outram mrt to make our way down to the airport. got to the mrt and both of us was so blur that we boarded the wrong direction of the train. haha... we went to redhill when i realised how come the colours of the walls are red? only then did we found out that we took the wrong direction. haha... it was so funny. can't believe that we actually did that. haha... got off the train and took the right direction towards the airport. oh man... my first time... got to the airport and alot of people are there already. popeyes for lunch... (our usual meal at the airport... other than BK...) sent him off and back to church i went...

got back to church and went to smu to buy some drinks from mr tea with reg and jh... haha... it's really worth it and it taste real good too! a 16oz milo dinosaur only cost me $1.50. enjoyed it totally! got back to church and waited for danny to come and pick up the speakers for blue moo. yea... it's blue moo friday and it is going to be a tiring night. (as usual, the crowd just kills us physically....) got to ymca to setup around 3.30pm. by the time we were done, it was 5.30pm and we were surprise! the first time in our history we actually have time for some sit down dinner. haha! so xiang, eileen and pearly were sent out to gather some provision for the group. they came back with chicken rice, duck rice, chee cheong fun, ah bo ling. shiok! had a good meal before an onslaught from the crowd later. haha... oh well...at least this time round wasn't so bad cause the group didn't really attracts that many crowd but enough to make me feel tired! hahaha... it was "key elements" performing... haha... it proved to be a record breaking day as by the time we were done packing, it was only 10.30pm! haha! for the first time! hahaha! another record! as usual, went down to our usual supper place... haha... dim sum i like... by the time i got home, it was 2.15am... went straight to bed and couldn't write at all...

cool shades?

mr cool...

the damages we did at the supper place... me and shane....

orange effect?

Saturday

had to get up at 8am today for the saturday soccer club. haha... it was super duper amazing hot weather today. oh man... was totally burned... looks like an malay boy now. went down to arts canteen to eat again. haha... it's officially our favorite lepak place now... hahaha... cheap and good food... hahaha... power hour was the next program that was going to happen. took bus with xiang to church. totally zonked out on the bus ride. haha... got there and enjoyed a half an hour sleep in mr wong's cubicle before power hour. hahaha... finished power hour and then down for worship pract. everything was finished only 8.30pm. oh man... long day... went for dinner after that at xiang man luo at bras basah. hungry... finish dinner but not without the usual around dinner table talk before leaving. haha... funny... all the ugly stuff let out of the closet. bad habits, smelly ones too... hahaha all revealed.

was walking to the mrt to accompany the rest and also jh needed to top up his ezlink and saw this picture outside fila. it was a cool picture and i decided to take it down... really nice...

cool picture eh?

was loading pictures into the com to put up in the blog when i saw this picture in my phone. it's actually a picture of our new church building that is still in construction. the cross is up already. can't wait to take the elevator after such a long period of stair climbing... hahahha!!!!

cross up....

well, today was another day spent in church and i'm getting back the groove. one more month before the sabbatical is up. then it's time to think about stuff. for now, just enjoy the rest... it might seem really tiring for me yesterday and today but i guess i'm living it to the fullest. haha... that's what really important. live life to the fullest and you won't regret it...

so is there quote of the day then? haha... of course there is one... and here it is...

Quote Of The Day
live your life to the fullest... you never know when you're going to meet your Creator...

Singaporean? I AM ONE...

was just watching channel 8 and they had a program which is talking about the Prime Minister Lee's message on sunday. didn't watch the message on sunday but thank papa God for being to watch it today...

never felt so emotional in such programs before but while watching it today, i realise how proud i am for being a singaporean. PM Lee was introducing the people who have made it to the "world cup". the referee that refereed 4 world cup games in the recent world cup in germany, the team leader of the team from ntu that won the world robotic championship and the chefs from a hotel that is going for another competition after being the reigning champion for the last 3 world culinary championship. i was emotional because it's my country that they are representing and i know they take great pride in doing so.

one statement that PM Lee said was "we always worry about the future and we never take for granted the present." when i heard that i know what papa God have done in this nation. from a small fishing village to a advancing city, i know this is all by the grace of papa God. only He can bring us this far and it's nothing that can be explained by human knowledge. it took us only 40 years to get to where we are. i am proud to be singaporean and i hope that if you are reading this post now, you will also be proud to be a singaporean (if you are one...)

i sit infront of my lappy and thank papa God that i'm able to be born in this nation. no fear of bomb exploding, gun shots in the background of the silent night, constant ringing of the police sirens and many other which is the fears of many people in other countries. water flowing out of the tap is drinkable, electricity blackout not a norm... all these are by the grace of papa God. i am so thankful and i know there is a reason why papa God gave and rise this nation to its standing of today's society.

so today if you see this post, would you please pray for singapore to rise up to its calling to be the antioch of asia and not take for granted the things that she has.

Pray this today...

Father, thank You for the things that You have done for Singapore. The blessings that you have poured out on us are so great and miraculous that we know You are making us to be the antioch of asia. Thank You for giving us leaders that leads with integrity and honesty, leaders that love the nation and her people. Bless them and bless their family. For those that still haven't know You, Lord sent people that will witness to them and show You to them. Lord, send Your angels to guide and guard the generations that is coming up and that they will not lose the values that You have given to Singapore when she was first founded. The values that have led Singapore to where she is today. Let the generation know Your name and You. Let this generation be used to fulfil the destiny of Singapore.

In Jesus name i pray.... AMEN!

long long wednesday... and a relaxing thursday...

Wednesday

day started early early... class was at 9am and runs all the way till 4pm. went to the airport after class to send our dearest mr wong off to his 3-months stint in perth with pastor benny. somehow, it has become a norm process rather than the emotional first time that he left for perth when he went off to study. oh well, times really flies! i guess 3 months will be real fast...

it's wednesday and the normal activity at night is basketball with the dudes in church. went down in mervyn's car after sending mr wong off at the airport. good workout and good shooting night... haha... beginning to find my touch back again and this time round, it's more deadly. by the time we were done, it was already 10.30pm. hit the coffeeshop for dinner with taffy, merv, david.

after dinner, mervyn, jh and me headed down to jason's house to supposedly to help him pack but by the time we were there, he was already done. (but it's the messiest kind of packing that i have ever seen...) as usual, everytime the throne zone meet, it's always talking and sharing of stuff and it's always a long extended time. haha... we talked and talked and talked about stuff (not necessary about BGRs...) it was a good time and always good to spend some time with people who are leaving and especially those that is close to you. (well, jason is leaving on fri afternoon to canada for 6 mths.)

it was another one of those days that i ask papa God that question... "when is it my turn? i want to go!" and His answers is always, "I know, I know... not time yet... wait awhile more..." it always happens when we go to the airport to send people off. well, i'm not complaining here. don't get me wrong. all i'm saying is that when you are waiting to go, always make sure that the timing is right and it's in papa God's plan. i hate to say this but when you decide to go your own ways, you always fall short of the best plan that papa God have for you and when that happen, i would say that you have robbed yourself of the best. i have learnt that the hard way and i know it's really painful and hard to accept even when you think that you're trying to serve papa God by going there or doing somethings.

Thursday

as usual, thursdays are my rest days at home. woke up at 12pm after the late night with the throne zone guys. decided to finished up the campbell soup that you read on tueday. (it taste as good as ever...) spent some time watching some clips from youtube and it was hilarious. so many stupid videos and videos of people doing stupid things to themselves. (roller-blading, skating, skateboarding.... to name a few...) it's just stupid! i wonder why people would want to do such stupid videos. for me, i'll rather do videos that will impact people in a great way. impacting the generations thru the use of technology for papa God.

oh well, cooked my own dinner again today. the menu consist of luncheon meat (again!), egg and rice. sound and looked simple but to me, it's a good meal. i really like this kind of meals. simple yet fulfilling. i love it!

i felt papa God asking me this question. "if, for the rest of your life, you are going have just these for dinner but you will be serving me full time, are you willing?" my first reaction was to think and try to imagine how it will look like. after doing that, my response was, "then how about my family? my wife and kids?" then papa God said, "well, they are going to follow you and do the things that you are doing." i stopped and thought for awhile and the finally i told papa God, "okay, i'll do it! i know that You will not leave me to die because i know You have a good track record and my family might not have what they want or desire but i know that we will be a close family, i will have a good relationship with my wife and my kids will be the nicest people around and You are going to bless them to do ever greater things that i can do. so for all these, i rather not be rich and get what i want but go Your way and let You lead my path." so as i continue to eat my dinner, it became even more tastier and appealing.

even as i continue to walk this journey of fulfilling papa God's dreams in my life, i'm beginning to be more contented with the stuff that i have, more thankful for the friendships and relationships that is in my life and more sensitive of the works of papa God in my life and in the nation. i'm praying that papa God will reveal more of the next step to take (either back to tca or to hills). pray with me if you would. email me or send me a sms or even talk to me when you see me if you hear anything from papa God.

Quote Of The Day
good food will only last you a short period but a good character and a intimate relationship with papa God will last you forever and to eternity.

Gossip Tuesday...

well... looking at my title for this post, you certainly will understand how my day went. haha... and i'm sure you got it right at your first guess...

went to school and it was one of those full day school for me. always enjoys these full day school cause it's the only time where i get to spent lots of time with my classmates. doing stupid things or even just sitting around talking and chatting and that was what happened today.

sat around with gerlynn, nicole, dana, baojun, jiewei, rasul and marcus because we belong to the 1-50 side of the attendance book. (the other side was 51-100 and yes, there is 100 of us in the course although it doesn't look like it.) i'm amazed at the size of singapore and how all the girls actually knows the same friends or at least know some history about some people. it's just amazes me! the best part was they actually talk with such passion. haha... channel it to presentation and they will definitely get an 'A'. haha! but i guess i'm just amazed how girls can click just like that... as long as they find an common ground with each other. i'm scared! you never know what they know about you... haha! i guess as long as you live your life with integrity and honesty, nothing bad will happen to you cause they don't have anything to say.

crazy day... wearing dana's specs...

bao as usual... trying to look pretty...

model look? bimbo leh...

dana and nicole with my phone... haha

finished school and went off to the canteen to have a small bite before going home. saw the "MDIS" basketball team and don't think they can play. haha... far off from where i am. different level. the typical US streetball play with lots of stunts but can't get the ball in. haha... in the end, it's about getting the ball into the net and scoring. no one will remember the stunts that you did if you end up the loser. no one... oh well, can't wait to get my hands on the ball tomorrow. wednesday is basketball day...

got home and decided to cook my own dinner instead of buying. had fried rice with luncheon meat. shiok! best combi! haha... cooked campbell's chicken cream soup and then realised that mummy's old yellow melon soup is actually still there. no competition for her soup. mrs campbell lose out in this round. decided to keep the cream soup for tomorrow instead. haha... dinner was good and then spent the next 4 hours watching tv which i haven't been doing for a long time. i;m surprised actually. tv used to be my life. it has to be on everyday and every hour and sometimes even when i'm sleeping. haha.. oh well... enjoyed all singapore drama serials... best!

i guess today was quite fun and normal. my life have been evolving around church for the last 4 years where i almost spent mondays to sundays in church. (working and working...) now i'm experiencing a different lifestyle of a student's life which i believe papa God is giving me so that i can relate to the students that i am going to reach out to. the kind of pressure (from school and peers) that is surrounding them everyday. now i understand it even more. talk about being equipped. this is the things that papa God wants us to be equipped with. thank You papa God... like i always tell the youths, the things that you are going through now might be tough but papa God is going to use that to give you a ministry. it's going to be your staff that you are going to help those people with just like how moses brought the israelites out of egypt. all he had was a staff and worse still, he can't even speak properly but papa God still used him to fulfil His wishes. so be a moses...

feeling a deeper and stronger sense of papa God wanting me to go back to bible school to finish up where i left off after this course. not confirming anything but will continue to pray and see where papa God will lead me. it's all for Him...

Quote Of The Day
live your life right and understand that one day, people are going see it and be moltivated to go the same way.

tired sunday and monday...

well... didn't manage to blog yesterday cause by the time i got home, i was so tired that the only thing i can do after i bathe is to lay down and fall asleep. (hygiene is important...)

oh well... just to clear up what happened on sat. it was tiredness complete with unfocused mind which led to all those feelings. oh well, it's part and parcel of life, so it's seriously how you deal with it that will matter.

SUNDAY

anyway, woke up late on sunday after a hangover from sat's events. haha... was so tired that i slept all the way till 1.30pm and realised that i'm late for service. oops! so by the time i got to church, it was around 2.30pm. thank God worship ended around that time. so i didn't miss the "sermon" part. watch a video clip titled "transformation hawaii" and it was about the transformation of hawaii under God's grace and how God can change things when a nation turn back to Him. crime rate dropped, graduation rate increase and out of job rate decreased. these are just a few things that will happen when God is made the Lord of the nation. it was so inspiring. can't wait to go back to ministry.

went to kopitiam for some snack after service. had some tim sums and bubur hitam! (my favourite!) haha! so shiok! just the way i like it! went back to church after that for some jamming actions. was on the drums and enjoyed it. haha... on well, who doesn't enjoy jamming? haha...

short pit stop @ Dome...

dinner was at Hong Kong Cafe @ katong. decided to go there because me, jh and jason wanted to have dinner with ian before he leave for perth on wed. went there with jh, jason, merv, ben and ian. the food there is really good! seriously! i had the original "din min" (instant noodle) with luncheon meat, sunny side up and a just nice serving of pork chop. costed me $6.90. worth it i must say. adding to it a original "si mud" milk tea. (best combination!) that was for dinner. dessert was a mango king. (overload of mangoes...) while we are there, we got to watch a little of man utd vs fulham and chelsea vs man city. it was fun! spent the whole time there making fun of mervyn! (TTT!) haha!!!! we also talked about some stuff that God is leading each of us to do... it was fun... got home around 2.30am. too tired to do anything else expect to sleep. (sorry for those who need a small dosage of my life story to get you into bed.)

MONDAY

couldn't wake up this morning on time for class. decided to go for the second half of class. got there and as usual, mr jailani was the usual entertainment for TDMC. enjoyed the second half of class. he's good!

went out with eddie, james, tany and lionel after school. had lunch @ margaret drive market and then off to parkland for some serious gaming actions! haha! shiok! 2 rounds of zero hour and then 2 rounds of hero seige which we still haven't complete. haha! played till like 4.45pm then off went me and james to NUS for monday tennis.

today's game was made up of me, james, ben fong, queenie, jason, mervyn, queenie's dad and jiamei. well, for the first time, i actually talk to jiamei. haha... nice and part of the journalist revolution. haha! she's working as a journalist! haha! cool! played till 9pm and then proceeded to holland v's katong laksa for dinner. fulfilling! haha! nice and i like! hahaha! got home with a lift from jason. (thank God for friends with cars and also those without cars!) haha!

well, these two days have taught me lots of stuff. stuff about myself and how i react now compared to last time. i learnt so much more of how to relate to people and how different people need different approach. so i guess there is no "foolproof" way of relating to people but i guess the most important factor must be everyone of us must be real! meaning that we don't just portray the joyful side but also we must be real even in relating anger, pain or hurt. that's where the "don't live with a mask" comes in. it's about being real before people so that people can also be real with you knowing that there won't be any rejections in being real infront of you. so always be real with friends and if they respond in the same way, you have a friend!

Quote Of The Day
be real and get a friend! Only real friends are willing to be real with you.

long long long saturday...

it was a long long long long saturday... woke up at 6.45am to get to church and settle some stuff before going to marina south for our soccer tournament. bought bread for the team but left it in church. got to marina south and distributed the jerseys to the players. 1st match started at 10am and we lost 1-0. we won the second, third, fifth match and drew the fourth and sixth match. in the quarter-finals, we won on penalty after a 0-0 draw and then went on to win the semi-finals 2-0. In the finals, it finished 0-0 at the end of normal time and it was down to penalty to decide the champions. we missed 2 penalties and they scored 2 penalties and we lost. we ended up first runner up but went beyond expectations.

well, on the outside, it looks like quite a feat for a day but for me... it totally suck! don't ask me why because i just think it sucks! sat soccer? forget it...

medal?

well i guess in the end, it all about me me me me me me me me me me me me me! i want, i want, i want... play this, play that... i don't want to put this in, i don't want to put that in. it's all crap! whatever it is, i'm just pissed today. i have my "off" days too... it's human... when you give someone the liberty to do something, they just take it and think they are the one... oh well... enough of soccer. don't want to let it take my joy away. not worth it. not worth working my butt off... emotions getting overboard...

went back to church after soccer to join some YA dinner. enjoyed myself so much there than soccer... totally found the joy that i need so much after soccer. found it and enjoyed myself. had nice nasi lemak, satay and drinks. totally satisfying. this is the good moment of today. oh well... i'm so so so tired now. don't want to think about anything now...

Quote Of The Day
whatever it is, don't let your emotions rule you...

Busy Friday...

didn't manage to wake up on time for school today due to the tiredness of my physical body. needed that extra 2 hours of sleep and decided to only go for the second half of the lecture. it was Social Behavioral Studies today.

spent the whole afternoon waiting for the team's jerseys which we need tomorrow morning for the MWS tournament. was supposed to collect at 2pm but was told that it was delayed cause there is not enough numbers for our jerseys and they were flying it in from thailand but it will only arrive at 4pm. felt a little irritated cause they didn't even bother to call us until we showed up at the shop. decided to get the shorts and socks first cause i figure out that when i go back to collect the jerseys later, i won't be able to carry everything and since tany, eddie and lionel was with me. we were looking forward to seeing our jerseys for the first time. took a bus to church and i was so tired on the bus that i just fell asleep the whole journey. got to church and spent a little time on managing the accounts for the jerseys. (as usual, there is always unpaid and missing money.) found out that we overpaid for the jerseys! haha! oh well... got there to collect our jerseys at 6pm and there is so much hipcups! jersey not printed... (we order a yellow for our keeper but they totally forgot about it. we had to wait for them to bring it to the printer to print and even then, they didn't have the size needed for yellow so we have to settle for blue instead. oh well, at leat it turned out nice...) got back to church and the young adults were enjoying the food from "mama hoi's kitchen". my very own mummy! haha... shrimp paste chicken, pork chop and stirred fried winter melon. had some chicken and went to sort out the jerseys for the players tomorrow. so much work! so busy and so irritated! went to cell after that but left early to come home to rest and do some work.

well, felt the whole day was a patience-endurance test. i was so irritated the whole day with the hipcups of the jerseys that i totally lost track of my own being. it was only when i reached church that i realised that it had overtaken my whole being and i was allowing myself to be irritated. the final straw came when john bevere made this statement. "the devil can't make us do things, he can only try to distract us and make us go down the wrong way" i knew papa God was telling me to be careful and not let the devil distract me. it was such a revelation and i just totally gave it to papa God and ask for His strength again. i knew that i was playing the devil's game and he was dominating it. i decided to break out and make myself the game master instead of allowing him to dominate and dictate the game. i won in the end cause he knows that i'm not going to play his game anymore. he lost! haha! i win! loser!

Quote Of The Day
don't let the devil rule and dictate the game. you can be your own game-master.

thursday blast!

can't seem to wake up this morning but finally did so after 4 snooze alarm rampage which made it 8.30am. dragged my lazy feets to to the toliet and made my way to school after a tiring walk to the bus stop outside my house. all these tiredness, all thanks to a movie marathon the night before. slept at 4am the night before but somehow, i managed to stay awake for class and then a "out the whole day" program with tany, eddie, james and xiang.

jailani's class is getting more and more exciting as the days goes by. more and more of his "funny" acts are beginning to surface and apparently he's liking the attentions. but i figure out that he's just being himself and also trying to make the class more exciting and interesting. at least now i can tell stories of having a lecturer that acts like that! haha! i really enjoy his class and i think he is seriously knowledgable in the subject that he's teaching us. good lecturer... watched lots of movie clips today and it is so darn good. this guy is teaching...

well, the whole of today after school was spent with eddie, tany, james and xiang. (lionel was with us for lunch before going off to meet someone.) we had lunch at holland v at the famous noodle shop along the subway row of shophouses. a special mention of the weather today, it is crazy hot today. just totally got roasted in the hot sun while walking to holland v. after lunch, we went down to parkland for some gaming actions. (the pros are in the house!) we played C&C:zero hours and then to heroes seigns. haha... it was really fun! power to the max! almost complete one map but then lost it at the last minute due to our ignorance. stupid creeps... oh well, finished around 6 plus and went back to church where we sat down to discuss dinner plans. decided to play a little juggling soccer in the carpark while waiting for siwei to get to church to join us for dinner. our final destination, JTJ at lavander...

james and tany waiting for their turn to order...

dinner at JTJ is the usual satisfying feeling. always satisfied after a meal at JTJ. the curry and the oyster sauce just rock! for those that haven't try it before, you are missing out on many stuff man! haha! spent awhile talking at the dinner table and recalling all the primary school "havoc" times. it's just so nice and joy-filled to talk about such things. it really brings back so much memories. we talked about the stuff that we do when we are young and all those "naughty" stuff that is always part of our growing up... i really enjoyed the time at JTJ today. talked and talked and talked... like i always said, people remembers the times when they are young and did silly things but that's just what a child needs to do! silly things that will leave a mark in their lives and something to talk about when they get older! not just about xbox, playstations or the newest computers, but more of the fun and joy that they get out of being silly or doing stupid things. be a child, do silly things and learn from them! don't always be boxed up in a room and play with yourself. go out into the open! go into the unknown!

came home and opened the letterbox to find the last thing that is on my mind in the letterbox. MDIS result slip! oh mine... i was so scared to open it but felt peace and when i opened it, it was thanksgiving flowing out of me. i got a B for advertising and promotional management,C for communication skills and C for media studies. haha... thank You papa God for the results. not expected and it's a surprise! as i embark on this journey in MDIS, i'm beginning to be more thankful to papa God for everything. even when results doesn't meet the target, i'm also thankful because i'm given a opportunity to study. so thankful, so grateful.

Quote Of The Day
things might not always turn out the way you want it. but understand that it's those times, when it doesn't turn out the way you want, that will define your life philosophy. deal with it in a positive frame of mind.

sporty wednesday...

woke up this morning @ 10.15am to make my way down to methodist hq to get the stuff from david for mws tournament this sat. got there, got briefed and went to school.

reached school at 12pm and started on gym. rasul, william and jj was supposed to be there at 12pm but all of them came late. so it was down to me and alvin. haha... had a good talk with him and begin to understand him more... haha... at least now i know he has a good spiritual background and i'm praying that he will return some day. guess this blog is working perfectly. he is a good guy, just that he needs to understand more of what christianity is all about. (bro, i pray that you will understand it soon!) now i know why papa God wants me to start this blog. oh well, it's all for Him. alvin made a remark and i know it's truth in him. he was saying that when christians go into a place, people will automatically know that they are christians cause there is a "aura" that is around them. this totally melt my heart cause i know that's truth and truth is in his life. that is such a important remark. just like the last time when he told me that by watching me play soccer, he knows that i'm a christian. i thank papa God that i haven't given Him a bad name so far! i guess i would say everything that happened today was planned by papa God. i had a good 1/2 an hour with alvin working out on the bicycle in the gym.

class was alright and during the break, the lecturer came over to talk to me and eddie at the canteen. it was a nice chat and i realised that the life that he lived is like me and eddie. studying at a older age than the rest of the classmates, he is such a moltivation. i know papa God sent him to come and talk to us cause i could hear papa God say "you are not alone!". thank You papa God.

dana and me... new friend?

as usual, wednesday nights are reserved for basketball in church. played and enjoyed the time but was careful today not to get injured and rule myself out of sat's tournament. keeping myself responsible for the team. went for dinner after that and i'm so so so so so so so tired! i need to sleep. got home with a ride from joel.

guess today was a good day cause i get to understand the little things that papa God got me to do that is now reaping the harvest. i thank papa God for the passion to write and i know He has blessed me with all the words that i have written in this blog. so you guys are literately hearing from papa God. i can feel so much of papa God's grace on me as i saw how i was able to process so much more things that i used to be able to. there is just so much more now!

alright! time to go to sleep... and for today's Quote of the Day...

Quote of the Day
people do observe how you live your life and how you behave. make sure you are making your father proud!