Taking Chances?

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.

So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

Unfailing God

Though my eyes may fail me, I will follow after You

Though Your promise seems forsaken

I’ll remember the world’s in Your hands

And You’ll find me singing

You are unfailing God,

Your love’s unending

And Your word is eternal,

Firm in the heavens it stands

Though sorrow’s my condition

And pain holds back no blow

Though this be my darkest hour

Your lamp is leading me home

And You’ll find me singing

Eyes can’t see but I feel You near

I know you’re working through my tears

I trust You Lord, I trust You for

You never walk away

Unfailing God, Unfailing God, Your love is unending,Lord

i broke down.

i broke down while driving back to church. i didn't know how to react anymore. the only way that came to me was to cry my heart out. i haven't cried like this for a long long long long time. i had to stop on the highway shoulder and cry. that was my only way of letting go. how many more times must i go through? how many! i want to let you go but i can't. i don't know how to. i don't want to. please let it come from you.

Last time.

I'm sitting here thinking what to write

knowing that this will be my last

My mind tells me go but my heart defers

I just want you to know

If this was the last time i see you

i want my heart to stop

if this was the last time i hear you

i want my mind to loss all it's memories

there's just no one i wanna be with

only you

I know i can only love you from far

there is nothing more i can do

all i do is to wish you well my love

but i still want you to know

thinking of you.

i don't know why? why do i have to be so stubborn? why why why?

haven't been able to sleep for the last few weeks. just couldn't sleep much. the last 2 weeks was just bad. the moment i close my eyes, you come to mind. why can't i just get you out? why? i really don't know. it's slowly killing me. it's slowly tearing me apart. i just can't do it anymore. it's hurting. really painful. pain to the max. seems like the heart wants to jump out of its place and just hide near you and be close to you.

It's killing me.

farewell...

i will always love you and be there for you.

you will always be a big part of my life.

but for now, it's me getting out of your life.