He wipes my tears away...

it's still painful...
it seem like it's not going to go away any time soon...
i don't want to dwell in this...
move on says my mind but my heart says no...
why did it become like this?
why? why? why?
i didn't ask for any of these...
definitely i didn't sign up for this...
no one is responsible for this...
it's me...
my own asking for a beating...
i don't know how to recover from this...
i feel tired...
i can't do this anymore...
it's taking a toil on me...


only thing i can do now is to dwell in His joy...
His joy will be my strength...
i want to live in freedom...
pain pain pain but i will overcome...
i will fight till the end...
i will not let my heart be so easily hurt again...
whatever have been said have already been said...
no turning back anymore...
it's walking on the tight rope now...
an overcomer i shall live...
a child of God

God, be real now...