Stay Home Thursday...

today's a stay home day for me. one whole week of being out of the house every day makes this day even more important and significant. important because i really need to be alone and to to do my stuff. significant because although i'm going out with my classmates everyday, i still am not caught in that cycle of having to go out everyday.

woke up @ 11.30am. needed to rest from yesterday's battering from soccer and going out. it was a good rest. decide to wash my boots and to pack up my messy table. (i dislike things to be messy but due to school, it was inevitable.) whenever i study, my table will be so messy but always didn't have the strength to clear up after because i always head to bed immediately or at least after i do my quiet time. finally did it today and satisfaction was the word to describe my feeling after that. spent some time talking to people on msn and hazelles was one of those that i talked to. read her blog and got some revelations! haha! oh well.. that's me... i always look, watch and then process.

my clean and tidy table... finally...

my soccer boots... once again shiny and clean...
with no funky smell from yesterday's mud...

read hazel's blog and saw some of her feelings. (don't worry hazel. i'm not criticizing you. it's my personal thoughts. it's something that i had gone through too. i think you are bold to even write it in your blog). i saw how a relationship that didn't work out would often result in something that wasn't even suppose to be there in the first place. how a action can be interpreted in such a way. now i understand why papa God gave us the Holy Spirit. so that we can see in the spiritual and be guided even in such things. even as a child, many times the way we interpret message is by how we feel or what experiences we have with the source. like a child, who had a bad experience with chilli, will alway refuse to take anything with chilli in it or anything that has the word in it. like chilli soup from dan ryan isn't spicy at all but because of the word chilli being part of the name, it will alway be avoided by the child. so in the same way, any actions towards the person that you have a failed relationship with will also be interpreted in the negative way. any mention of that name will trigger off a long list of hurts that is hidden somewhere in the heart. the best way to get rid of this is to give it all to papa God. papa God will always be there... always waiting for us to give all our pains to Him.

had dinner around 8 plus... dinner was the normal mixed veg rice from the coffee shop downstair. i had rice and my sis had porridge... the teochew porridge kind. haha... good dinner and just totally filling. haha...

the dinner that me and my sis had...

see! this is the kind of dinner that i'm so used to when i was young. chinese food and all. now, it's the normal burgers and fries or the frequent carbonara. i used to be excited when i was young when it comes to dinner. it was the time where i get to eat my mum's home cooked food and nothing beats that! i remember that when i was in primary school, i always wanted the school bus driver to drive faster because i was getting excited to eat the food that my mum would prepare for dinner. the soups and especially the soya sauce chicken and the nonya tao pok... yum yum... haha... but now, because of so much commitments outside of family, dinner was a rarity, limited only to occassional sundays or chinese new year. i miss it so much. tried to come back for dinner more often on sundays but somehow, always ended up eating outside with friends. the moment we grow up, dinner with family becomes secondary and friends becomes first. why? dinner with friends are more important now. oh well, wish i can go back to being a child and rush back home for dinner everyday. haha... i love mummy's food! sorry mummy... thank you mummy for always cooking for the family even when you don't feel like it. *smuck!

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you choose what you want to see or hear. choose the better feeling one.