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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

what if?

what if i lose all my memories tomorrow?
what if all i remember was nothing?
what if tomorrow all that's left is my empty shell?
what if all that i'm waiting for is back home?
what if memories was something that i can't hold on to?
what if, what if, what if?

forever now has a different meaning. forever becomes something that is so tangible. forever is so uncertain.

i had a fear today. i suddenly forgot what i was in malacca for. i forgot who i was here with. i didn't know what was happening. all that i remember was my name. this happened for a good 5 mins. Is this the beginning?

i didn't want to tell you this. i didn't want you to know. But today will mark the day where you will hate me for the rest of your life. i don't know what to say to you or whether i can face you ever again. i don't know.