Leona Lewis - Better In Time (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover) on iTunes

Boyce Avenue - Every Breath

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry for saying all those things.
i'm sorry for putting you through this whole emotional ride which ends up no where.
i'm sorry for thinking that my intentions were for your benefits but end up hurting you even more.
i'm sorry for going back on my words.
i'm sorry for not standing my ground when i need to and causing you to be confused.
i'm sorry for trying to push you away.
i'm sorry for not using my word wisely.
i'm sorry for not thinking before i speak.
i'm sorry for not keeping my boundaries.
i'm sorry for not hearing you.
i'm sorry for not giving you a chance to say what you wanted.
i'm sorry for being ridiculous.
i'm sorry for being childish.
i'm sorry for hurting your feelings.
i'm sorry for constantly trying to provoke you.
i'm sorry for everything that i have done.

i'm really sorry...................

let your heart decide.

I understand that you’ve met someone
With a perfect heart
But you’ve been questioned by everyone;
Are you in the dark?
Can you choose to fall,
Should you risk it all?

How’m I gonna stop it if you wanna give it all to love
When I’m on your side
And I understand you’re the only one to know
Whether wrong or right
Let your heart decide (you’re the only one)

Some may tell you don’t take the risk
It’s a waste of time
But if you think you’ll find happiness
Baby take the dive

It’s unusual
But it’s critical

How’m I gonna stop it if you wanna give it all to love
When I’m on your side
And I understand you’re the only one to know
Whether wrong or right
Let your heart decide (you’re the only one)

Give it up
How’m I gonna stop it if you wanna give it all to love
When I’m on your side
And I understand you’re the only one to know
Whether wrong or right
Let your heart decide (you’re the only one)

i'd got a disney fetish now.

Disney night anyone?

i did it.

i managed to do it today. it's finally over. no longer will it come back to haunt me. i don't know whether this is the right thing to do but i'm praying hard that it is. Even if it isn't, i'd already done and i must not regret it. short pain rather than to drag on and get hurt even more. cut it clean and thorough once and for all.

oh, j is attached. haha. finally and it's quite a good timing. :) got rid of both at the same time.

it hurts but i'll live.

he came down. he did.

storms may come but i'll still hold on.

sometimes, loving someone means doing the best thing to make sure the person is happy in the long run. it's no longer about the temporal happiness that comes by saying the right things, making the right gesture, making the right promises or having the right actions. it's about thinking ahead. it's about knowing the pro and cons of the whole thing. it's about knowing that the end product of it is for the benefit of the other person. it's not even about whether the other person is happy but knowing that it will not cause more hurts or pain. it usually requires one party to be the bad person or the enforcer of the pact. it requires the person to say some things that is nasty or out of the box. painful it might be, but looking ahead and knowing that it does good at the end, takes away pains that's temporal. live with it, i said. live with it. everyone will have pains. physical pain, emotional pain... some people deal with pain easily, some take days, months, years, but some, their whole life to deal with it. it might seem like it's unnecessary but we all know that at one point, we need to do it. people often say, when something end, it's a start of another thing. it might be true, it might not be. unless we try it, we will never know. some people might see it as a storm but i'll rather see it as a small little rain that will go away after awhile. you might be drenched but you know the sunshine will come after and soon, you will be dry. so take heart, look forward to the sunshine days.

i'm sorry for doing all these but this is the best thing that can happen to the both of us. i'm staying away, far far away. don't want to mess it up anymore. enough is enough. there's many more out there. take your pick. for me, i'm a fading memory that shouldn't even suppose to be there. goodbye my friend, goodbye.

respond...

i don't want to go back there again.
i'm tired of it.
can i just say no and keep my distance?
can i just avoid and not face it at all.
i am afraid.
i have fears.
i don't to be hurt again.
i don't want to live that zombie life again.

but i love you no matter what.
but i'm just afraid.
i am sorry.
i'm staying away.