sound of waves

ever heard the sound of waves when you're down? seems like it's constantly talking to you and everything it's saying is "it's okay". that's why I love coming to the coast. it never fails to give me peace and a good quietness that's always assuring. (:

I'd been thinking alot. alot alot. I just don't know how long I can hold on for. I can't bear to see her like that. it's killing me. tell me what to do. please please.

the real thing

it happened today when i was out with her.

suddenly it just came.

without warnings and signs like the past.

i couldn't remember much.

just that she was with me.

it hurts so much.

till i had to stop and ask her to go ahead.

this is going to be my life.

this is how it's going to look like.