Back again... My long tiring week...

finally back after a short break from blogging.... haha... actually i was tired and didn't managed to blog the last few days...

well.. a short summary of monday to wednesday...

school was happening everyday and non-stop actions with the lecturers. hahaha... did a presentation on monday for TPSW on Big Mac. got a 9/10 for presentation. haha... good enough... 2 down, last 2 to go for this term. went down to town on tuesday and wednesday. haha... as usual, it was crazy times... hahaha... wednesday was funny... class finished early cause the afternoon class lecturer was on mc. so we decided to go to town and chill... went down to far east plaza for lunch first. it was a real big group... 14 of us... hahaha... then it started pouring and i figure out that wednesday bball was going to be cancelled. so hang out all the way till like 11pm. hahaha... it was a seriously fun time... activities include shopping, xbox, laning, dinner and smoking (for the smokers and many times...). got home, was too tired and then fell asleep... hahaha...

jiewei as usual... looking pretty...

the 3 little pigs?

laptop stack... rasul, michelle and mine...

my laptop butler for the day... shy...

as usual, thursday is rest day for me and i stayed home till the late afternoon. it was raining non-stop and just too crazy to go out in that rain. it finally stop around 4pm and by then, i was hungry (cause i was too lazy to walk downstairs to buy my lunch.) had a turkish kebah at parkland before going to sim lim to pick up some stuff... met some of the church guys for dinner at meridian's food court for dinner after that. hahaha... got home and decided to write this entry to at least make up for the last few days of AWOL.

had a good talk with jiewei and rasul on tuesday while sitting down at penisular for dinner and then drinks afterwards at TCC. talked about life and how money is hard to come by. i realised that both of them actually know their limits when it comes to money and also know the hard work that is put in to earn money. haha... they actually shared about their job working experience during the 'O' level waiting period. haha... but i guess it's good that they know now rather than when they come out to work at the end of their studies... cool stuff...

it has been a long 4 days for me. hearing from papa God have been lots. understanding why papa God only allowed me to study secularly now and how He had changed my mindset so much that i don't even realise it until i talk to people. am knowing even more now that my call to worship needs to be fulfiled. can almost hear papa God just saying "GO!" am just waiting for this mass comm course to finish and then be prepared to see where papa God leads me to! hahaha... i am excited... mass comm? worship? where's the link? there is a link... communicating worship to the masses... i know now... speak to the masses it is... i am ready to go... "here am i, send me!!! me! me! me! i am available" shouts from the inside of my heart!

Quote Of The Day
money is alway hard-earned... make full use of it and use it wisely....

Record Breaking Blue Moo Friday and Long Hot Saturday...

was too tired to post anything yesterday after blue moo. this is getting more and more frequent. oh no...

Friday

finally mr jason wong have left for canada for his exchange program. woke up at 12pm and immediately wash up and left to meet jh at outram mrt to make our way down to the airport. got to the mrt and both of us was so blur that we boarded the wrong direction of the train. haha... we went to redhill when i realised how come the colours of the walls are red? only then did we found out that we took the wrong direction. haha... it was so funny. can't believe that we actually did that. haha... got off the train and took the right direction towards the airport. oh man... my first time... got to the airport and alot of people are there already. popeyes for lunch... (our usual meal at the airport... other than BK...) sent him off and back to church i went...

got back to church and went to smu to buy some drinks from mr tea with reg and jh... haha... it's really worth it and it taste real good too! a 16oz milo dinosaur only cost me $1.50. enjoyed it totally! got back to church and waited for danny to come and pick up the speakers for blue moo. yea... it's blue moo friday and it is going to be a tiring night. (as usual, the crowd just kills us physically....) got to ymca to setup around 3.30pm. by the time we were done, it was 5.30pm and we were surprise! the first time in our history we actually have time for some sit down dinner. haha! so xiang, eileen and pearly were sent out to gather some provision for the group. they came back with chicken rice, duck rice, chee cheong fun, ah bo ling. shiok! had a good meal before an onslaught from the crowd later. haha... oh well...at least this time round wasn't so bad cause the group didn't really attracts that many crowd but enough to make me feel tired! hahaha... it was "key elements" performing... haha... it proved to be a record breaking day as by the time we were done packing, it was only 10.30pm! haha! for the first time! hahaha! another record! as usual, went down to our usual supper place... haha... dim sum i like... by the time i got home, it was 2.15am... went straight to bed and couldn't write at all...

cool shades?

mr cool...

the damages we did at the supper place... me and shane....

orange effect?

Saturday

had to get up at 8am today for the saturday soccer club. haha... it was super duper amazing hot weather today. oh man... was totally burned... looks like an malay boy now. went down to arts canteen to eat again. haha... it's officially our favorite lepak place now... hahaha... cheap and good food... hahaha... power hour was the next program that was going to happen. took bus with xiang to church. totally zonked out on the bus ride. haha... got there and enjoyed a half an hour sleep in mr wong's cubicle before power hour. hahaha... finished power hour and then down for worship pract. everything was finished only 8.30pm. oh man... long day... went for dinner after that at xiang man luo at bras basah. hungry... finish dinner but not without the usual around dinner table talk before leaving. haha... funny... all the ugly stuff let out of the closet. bad habits, smelly ones too... hahaha all revealed.

was walking to the mrt to accompany the rest and also jh needed to top up his ezlink and saw this picture outside fila. it was a cool picture and i decided to take it down... really nice...

cool picture eh?

was loading pictures into the com to put up in the blog when i saw this picture in my phone. it's actually a picture of our new church building that is still in construction. the cross is up already. can't wait to take the elevator after such a long period of stair climbing... hahahha!!!!

cross up....

well, today was another day spent in church and i'm getting back the groove. one more month before the sabbatical is up. then it's time to think about stuff. for now, just enjoy the rest... it might seem really tiring for me yesterday and today but i guess i'm living it to the fullest. haha... that's what really important. live life to the fullest and you won't regret it...

so is there quote of the day then? haha... of course there is one... and here it is...

Quote Of The Day
live your life to the fullest... you never know when you're going to meet your Creator...

Singaporean? I AM ONE...

was just watching channel 8 and they had a program which is talking about the Prime Minister Lee's message on sunday. didn't watch the message on sunday but thank papa God for being to watch it today...

never felt so emotional in such programs before but while watching it today, i realise how proud i am for being a singaporean. PM Lee was introducing the people who have made it to the "world cup". the referee that refereed 4 world cup games in the recent world cup in germany, the team leader of the team from ntu that won the world robotic championship and the chefs from a hotel that is going for another competition after being the reigning champion for the last 3 world culinary championship. i was emotional because it's my country that they are representing and i know they take great pride in doing so.

one statement that PM Lee said was "we always worry about the future and we never take for granted the present." when i heard that i know what papa God have done in this nation. from a small fishing village to a advancing city, i know this is all by the grace of papa God. only He can bring us this far and it's nothing that can be explained by human knowledge. it took us only 40 years to get to where we are. i am proud to be singaporean and i hope that if you are reading this post now, you will also be proud to be a singaporean (if you are one...)

i sit infront of my lappy and thank papa God that i'm able to be born in this nation. no fear of bomb exploding, gun shots in the background of the silent night, constant ringing of the police sirens and many other which is the fears of many people in other countries. water flowing out of the tap is drinkable, electricity blackout not a norm... all these are by the grace of papa God. i am so thankful and i know there is a reason why papa God gave and rise this nation to its standing of today's society.

so today if you see this post, would you please pray for singapore to rise up to its calling to be the antioch of asia and not take for granted the things that she has.

Pray this today...

Father, thank You for the things that You have done for Singapore. The blessings that you have poured out on us are so great and miraculous that we know You are making us to be the antioch of asia. Thank You for giving us leaders that leads with integrity and honesty, leaders that love the nation and her people. Bless them and bless their family. For those that still haven't know You, Lord sent people that will witness to them and show You to them. Lord, send Your angels to guide and guard the generations that is coming up and that they will not lose the values that You have given to Singapore when she was first founded. The values that have led Singapore to where she is today. Let the generation know Your name and You. Let this generation be used to fulfil the destiny of Singapore.

In Jesus name i pray.... AMEN!

long long wednesday... and a relaxing thursday...

Wednesday

day started early early... class was at 9am and runs all the way till 4pm. went to the airport after class to send our dearest mr wong off to his 3-months stint in perth with pastor benny. somehow, it has become a norm process rather than the emotional first time that he left for perth when he went off to study. oh well, times really flies! i guess 3 months will be real fast...

it's wednesday and the normal activity at night is basketball with the dudes in church. went down in mervyn's car after sending mr wong off at the airport. good workout and good shooting night... haha... beginning to find my touch back again and this time round, it's more deadly. by the time we were done, it was already 10.30pm. hit the coffeeshop for dinner with taffy, merv, david.

after dinner, mervyn, jh and me headed down to jason's house to supposedly to help him pack but by the time we were there, he was already done. (but it's the messiest kind of packing that i have ever seen...) as usual, everytime the throne zone meet, it's always talking and sharing of stuff and it's always a long extended time. haha... we talked and talked and talked about stuff (not necessary about BGRs...) it was a good time and always good to spend some time with people who are leaving and especially those that is close to you. (well, jason is leaving on fri afternoon to canada for 6 mths.)

it was another one of those days that i ask papa God that question... "when is it my turn? i want to go!" and His answers is always, "I know, I know... not time yet... wait awhile more..." it always happens when we go to the airport to send people off. well, i'm not complaining here. don't get me wrong. all i'm saying is that when you are waiting to go, always make sure that the timing is right and it's in papa God's plan. i hate to say this but when you decide to go your own ways, you always fall short of the best plan that papa God have for you and when that happen, i would say that you have robbed yourself of the best. i have learnt that the hard way and i know it's really painful and hard to accept even when you think that you're trying to serve papa God by going there or doing somethings.

Thursday

as usual, thursdays are my rest days at home. woke up at 12pm after the late night with the throne zone guys. decided to finished up the campbell soup that you read on tueday. (it taste as good as ever...) spent some time watching some clips from youtube and it was hilarious. so many stupid videos and videos of people doing stupid things to themselves. (roller-blading, skating, skateboarding.... to name a few...) it's just stupid! i wonder why people would want to do such stupid videos. for me, i'll rather do videos that will impact people in a great way. impacting the generations thru the use of technology for papa God.

oh well, cooked my own dinner again today. the menu consist of luncheon meat (again!), egg and rice. sound and looked simple but to me, it's a good meal. i really like this kind of meals. simple yet fulfilling. i love it!

i felt papa God asking me this question. "if, for the rest of your life, you are going have just these for dinner but you will be serving me full time, are you willing?" my first reaction was to think and try to imagine how it will look like. after doing that, my response was, "then how about my family? my wife and kids?" then papa God said, "well, they are going to follow you and do the things that you are doing." i stopped and thought for awhile and the finally i told papa God, "okay, i'll do it! i know that You will not leave me to die because i know You have a good track record and my family might not have what they want or desire but i know that we will be a close family, i will have a good relationship with my wife and my kids will be the nicest people around and You are going to bless them to do ever greater things that i can do. so for all these, i rather not be rich and get what i want but go Your way and let You lead my path." so as i continue to eat my dinner, it became even more tastier and appealing.

even as i continue to walk this journey of fulfilling papa God's dreams in my life, i'm beginning to be more contented with the stuff that i have, more thankful for the friendships and relationships that is in my life and more sensitive of the works of papa God in my life and in the nation. i'm praying that papa God will reveal more of the next step to take (either back to tca or to hills). pray with me if you would. email me or send me a sms or even talk to me when you see me if you hear anything from papa God.

Quote Of The Day
good food will only last you a short period but a good character and a intimate relationship with papa God will last you forever and to eternity.

Gossip Tuesday...

well... looking at my title for this post, you certainly will understand how my day went. haha... and i'm sure you got it right at your first guess...

went to school and it was one of those full day school for me. always enjoys these full day school cause it's the only time where i get to spent lots of time with my classmates. doing stupid things or even just sitting around talking and chatting and that was what happened today.

sat around with gerlynn, nicole, dana, baojun, jiewei, rasul and marcus because we belong to the 1-50 side of the attendance book. (the other side was 51-100 and yes, there is 100 of us in the course although it doesn't look like it.) i'm amazed at the size of singapore and how all the girls actually knows the same friends or at least know some history about some people. it's just amazes me! the best part was they actually talk with such passion. haha... channel it to presentation and they will definitely get an 'A'. haha! but i guess i'm just amazed how girls can click just like that... as long as they find an common ground with each other. i'm scared! you never know what they know about you... haha! i guess as long as you live your life with integrity and honesty, nothing bad will happen to you cause they don't have anything to say.

crazy day... wearing dana's specs...

bao as usual... trying to look pretty...

model look? bimbo leh...

dana and nicole with my phone... haha

finished school and went off to the canteen to have a small bite before going home. saw the "MDIS" basketball team and don't think they can play. haha... far off from where i am. different level. the typical US streetball play with lots of stunts but can't get the ball in. haha... in the end, it's about getting the ball into the net and scoring. no one will remember the stunts that you did if you end up the loser. no one... oh well, can't wait to get my hands on the ball tomorrow. wednesday is basketball day...

got home and decided to cook my own dinner instead of buying. had fried rice with luncheon meat. shiok! best combi! haha... cooked campbell's chicken cream soup and then realised that mummy's old yellow melon soup is actually still there. no competition for her soup. mrs campbell lose out in this round. decided to keep the cream soup for tomorrow instead. haha... dinner was good and then spent the next 4 hours watching tv which i haven't been doing for a long time. i;m surprised actually. tv used to be my life. it has to be on everyday and every hour and sometimes even when i'm sleeping. haha.. oh well... enjoyed all singapore drama serials... best!

i guess today was quite fun and normal. my life have been evolving around church for the last 4 years where i almost spent mondays to sundays in church. (working and working...) now i'm experiencing a different lifestyle of a student's life which i believe papa God is giving me so that i can relate to the students that i am going to reach out to. the kind of pressure (from school and peers) that is surrounding them everyday. now i understand it even more. talk about being equipped. this is the things that papa God wants us to be equipped with. thank You papa God... like i always tell the youths, the things that you are going through now might be tough but papa God is going to use that to give you a ministry. it's going to be your staff that you are going to help those people with just like how moses brought the israelites out of egypt. all he had was a staff and worse still, he can't even speak properly but papa God still used him to fulfil His wishes. so be a moses...

feeling a deeper and stronger sense of papa God wanting me to go back to bible school to finish up where i left off after this course. not confirming anything but will continue to pray and see where papa God will lead me. it's all for Him...

Quote Of The Day
live your life right and understand that one day, people are going see it and be moltivated to go the same way.

tired sunday and monday...

well... didn't manage to blog yesterday cause by the time i got home, i was so tired that the only thing i can do after i bathe is to lay down and fall asleep. (hygiene is important...)

oh well... just to clear up what happened on sat. it was tiredness complete with unfocused mind which led to all those feelings. oh well, it's part and parcel of life, so it's seriously how you deal with it that will matter.

SUNDAY

anyway, woke up late on sunday after a hangover from sat's events. haha... was so tired that i slept all the way till 1.30pm and realised that i'm late for service. oops! so by the time i got to church, it was around 2.30pm. thank God worship ended around that time. so i didn't miss the "sermon" part. watch a video clip titled "transformation hawaii" and it was about the transformation of hawaii under God's grace and how God can change things when a nation turn back to Him. crime rate dropped, graduation rate increase and out of job rate decreased. these are just a few things that will happen when God is made the Lord of the nation. it was so inspiring. can't wait to go back to ministry.

went to kopitiam for some snack after service. had some tim sums and bubur hitam! (my favourite!) haha! so shiok! just the way i like it! went back to church after that for some jamming actions. was on the drums and enjoyed it. haha... on well, who doesn't enjoy jamming? haha...

short pit stop @ Dome...

dinner was at Hong Kong Cafe @ katong. decided to go there because me, jh and jason wanted to have dinner with ian before he leave for perth on wed. went there with jh, jason, merv, ben and ian. the food there is really good! seriously! i had the original "din min" (instant noodle) with luncheon meat, sunny side up and a just nice serving of pork chop. costed me $6.90. worth it i must say. adding to it a original "si mud" milk tea. (best combination!) that was for dinner. dessert was a mango king. (overload of mangoes...) while we are there, we got to watch a little of man utd vs fulham and chelsea vs man city. it was fun! spent the whole time there making fun of mervyn! (TTT!) haha!!!! we also talked about some stuff that God is leading each of us to do... it was fun... got home around 2.30am. too tired to do anything else expect to sleep. (sorry for those who need a small dosage of my life story to get you into bed.)

MONDAY

couldn't wake up this morning on time for class. decided to go for the second half of class. got there and as usual, mr jailani was the usual entertainment for TDMC. enjoyed the second half of class. he's good!

went out with eddie, james, tany and lionel after school. had lunch @ margaret drive market and then off to parkland for some serious gaming actions! haha! shiok! 2 rounds of zero hour and then 2 rounds of hero seige which we still haven't complete. haha! played till like 4.45pm then off went me and james to NUS for monday tennis.

today's game was made up of me, james, ben fong, queenie, jason, mervyn, queenie's dad and jiamei. well, for the first time, i actually talk to jiamei. haha... nice and part of the journalist revolution. haha! she's working as a journalist! haha! cool! played till 9pm and then proceeded to holland v's katong laksa for dinner. fulfilling! haha! nice and i like! hahaha! got home with a lift from jason. (thank God for friends with cars and also those without cars!) haha!

well, these two days have taught me lots of stuff. stuff about myself and how i react now compared to last time. i learnt so much more of how to relate to people and how different people need different approach. so i guess there is no "foolproof" way of relating to people but i guess the most important factor must be everyone of us must be real! meaning that we don't just portray the joyful side but also we must be real even in relating anger, pain or hurt. that's where the "don't live with a mask" comes in. it's about being real before people so that people can also be real with you knowing that there won't be any rejections in being real infront of you. so always be real with friends and if they respond in the same way, you have a friend!

Quote Of The Day
be real and get a friend! Only real friends are willing to be real with you.

long long long saturday...

it was a long long long long saturday... woke up at 6.45am to get to church and settle some stuff before going to marina south for our soccer tournament. bought bread for the team but left it in church. got to marina south and distributed the jerseys to the players. 1st match started at 10am and we lost 1-0. we won the second, third, fifth match and drew the fourth and sixth match. in the quarter-finals, we won on penalty after a 0-0 draw and then went on to win the semi-finals 2-0. In the finals, it finished 0-0 at the end of normal time and it was down to penalty to decide the champions. we missed 2 penalties and they scored 2 penalties and we lost. we ended up first runner up but went beyond expectations.

well, on the outside, it looks like quite a feat for a day but for me... it totally suck! don't ask me why because i just think it sucks! sat soccer? forget it...

medal?

well i guess in the end, it all about me me me me me me me me me me me me me! i want, i want, i want... play this, play that... i don't want to put this in, i don't want to put that in. it's all crap! whatever it is, i'm just pissed today. i have my "off" days too... it's human... when you give someone the liberty to do something, they just take it and think they are the one... oh well... enough of soccer. don't want to let it take my joy away. not worth it. not worth working my butt off... emotions getting overboard...

went back to church after soccer to join some YA dinner. enjoyed myself so much there than soccer... totally found the joy that i need so much after soccer. found it and enjoyed myself. had nice nasi lemak, satay and drinks. totally satisfying. this is the good moment of today. oh well... i'm so so so tired now. don't want to think about anything now...

Quote Of The Day
whatever it is, don't let your emotions rule you...

Busy Friday...

didn't manage to wake up on time for school today due to the tiredness of my physical body. needed that extra 2 hours of sleep and decided to only go for the second half of the lecture. it was Social Behavioral Studies today.

spent the whole afternoon waiting for the team's jerseys which we need tomorrow morning for the MWS tournament. was supposed to collect at 2pm but was told that it was delayed cause there is not enough numbers for our jerseys and they were flying it in from thailand but it will only arrive at 4pm. felt a little irritated cause they didn't even bother to call us until we showed up at the shop. decided to get the shorts and socks first cause i figure out that when i go back to collect the jerseys later, i won't be able to carry everything and since tany, eddie and lionel was with me. we were looking forward to seeing our jerseys for the first time. took a bus to church and i was so tired on the bus that i just fell asleep the whole journey. got to church and spent a little time on managing the accounts for the jerseys. (as usual, there is always unpaid and missing money.) found out that we overpaid for the jerseys! haha! oh well... got there to collect our jerseys at 6pm and there is so much hipcups! jersey not printed... (we order a yellow for our keeper but they totally forgot about it. we had to wait for them to bring it to the printer to print and even then, they didn't have the size needed for yellow so we have to settle for blue instead. oh well, at leat it turned out nice...) got back to church and the young adults were enjoying the food from "mama hoi's kitchen". my very own mummy! haha... shrimp paste chicken, pork chop and stirred fried winter melon. had some chicken and went to sort out the jerseys for the players tomorrow. so much work! so busy and so irritated! went to cell after that but left early to come home to rest and do some work.

well, felt the whole day was a patience-endurance test. i was so irritated the whole day with the hipcups of the jerseys that i totally lost track of my own being. it was only when i reached church that i realised that it had overtaken my whole being and i was allowing myself to be irritated. the final straw came when john bevere made this statement. "the devil can't make us do things, he can only try to distract us and make us go down the wrong way" i knew papa God was telling me to be careful and not let the devil distract me. it was such a revelation and i just totally gave it to papa God and ask for His strength again. i knew that i was playing the devil's game and he was dominating it. i decided to break out and make myself the game master instead of allowing him to dominate and dictate the game. i won in the end cause he knows that i'm not going to play his game anymore. he lost! haha! i win! loser!

Quote Of The Day
don't let the devil rule and dictate the game. you can be your own game-master.

thursday blast!

can't seem to wake up this morning but finally did so after 4 snooze alarm rampage which made it 8.30am. dragged my lazy feets to to the toliet and made my way to school after a tiring walk to the bus stop outside my house. all these tiredness, all thanks to a movie marathon the night before. slept at 4am the night before but somehow, i managed to stay awake for class and then a "out the whole day" program with tany, eddie, james and xiang.

jailani's class is getting more and more exciting as the days goes by. more and more of his "funny" acts are beginning to surface and apparently he's liking the attentions. but i figure out that he's just being himself and also trying to make the class more exciting and interesting. at least now i can tell stories of having a lecturer that acts like that! haha! i really enjoy his class and i think he is seriously knowledgable in the subject that he's teaching us. good lecturer... watched lots of movie clips today and it is so darn good. this guy is teaching...

well, the whole of today after school was spent with eddie, tany, james and xiang. (lionel was with us for lunch before going off to meet someone.) we had lunch at holland v at the famous noodle shop along the subway row of shophouses. a special mention of the weather today, it is crazy hot today. just totally got roasted in the hot sun while walking to holland v. after lunch, we went down to parkland for some gaming actions. (the pros are in the house!) we played C&C:zero hours and then to heroes seigns. haha... it was really fun! power to the max! almost complete one map but then lost it at the last minute due to our ignorance. stupid creeps... oh well, finished around 6 plus and went back to church where we sat down to discuss dinner plans. decided to play a little juggling soccer in the carpark while waiting for siwei to get to church to join us for dinner. our final destination, JTJ at lavander...

james and tany waiting for their turn to order...

dinner at JTJ is the usual satisfying feeling. always satisfied after a meal at JTJ. the curry and the oyster sauce just rock! for those that haven't try it before, you are missing out on many stuff man! haha! spent awhile talking at the dinner table and recalling all the primary school "havoc" times. it's just so nice and joy-filled to talk about such things. it really brings back so much memories. we talked about the stuff that we do when we are young and all those "naughty" stuff that is always part of our growing up... i really enjoyed the time at JTJ today. talked and talked and talked... like i always said, people remembers the times when they are young and did silly things but that's just what a child needs to do! silly things that will leave a mark in their lives and something to talk about when they get older! not just about xbox, playstations or the newest computers, but more of the fun and joy that they get out of being silly or doing stupid things. be a child, do silly things and learn from them! don't always be boxed up in a room and play with yourself. go out into the open! go into the unknown!

came home and opened the letterbox to find the last thing that is on my mind in the letterbox. MDIS result slip! oh mine... i was so scared to open it but felt peace and when i opened it, it was thanksgiving flowing out of me. i got a B for advertising and promotional management,C for communication skills and C for media studies. haha... thank You papa God for the results. not expected and it's a surprise! as i embark on this journey in MDIS, i'm beginning to be more thankful to papa God for everything. even when results doesn't meet the target, i'm also thankful because i'm given a opportunity to study. so thankful, so grateful.

Quote Of The Day
things might not always turn out the way you want it. but understand that it's those times, when it doesn't turn out the way you want, that will define your life philosophy. deal with it in a positive frame of mind.

sporty wednesday...

woke up this morning @ 10.15am to make my way down to methodist hq to get the stuff from david for mws tournament this sat. got there, got briefed and went to school.

reached school at 12pm and started on gym. rasul, william and jj was supposed to be there at 12pm but all of them came late. so it was down to me and alvin. haha... had a good talk with him and begin to understand him more... haha... at least now i know he has a good spiritual background and i'm praying that he will return some day. guess this blog is working perfectly. he is a good guy, just that he needs to understand more of what christianity is all about. (bro, i pray that you will understand it soon!) now i know why papa God wants me to start this blog. oh well, it's all for Him. alvin made a remark and i know it's truth in him. he was saying that when christians go into a place, people will automatically know that they are christians cause there is a "aura" that is around them. this totally melt my heart cause i know that's truth and truth is in his life. that is such a important remark. just like the last time when he told me that by watching me play soccer, he knows that i'm a christian. i thank papa God that i haven't given Him a bad name so far! i guess i would say everything that happened today was planned by papa God. i had a good 1/2 an hour with alvin working out on the bicycle in the gym.

class was alright and during the break, the lecturer came over to talk to me and eddie at the canteen. it was a nice chat and i realised that the life that he lived is like me and eddie. studying at a older age than the rest of the classmates, he is such a moltivation. i know papa God sent him to come and talk to us cause i could hear papa God say "you are not alone!". thank You papa God.

dana and me... new friend?

as usual, wednesday nights are reserved for basketball in church. played and enjoyed the time but was careful today not to get injured and rule myself out of sat's tournament. keeping myself responsible for the team. went for dinner after that and i'm so so so so so so so tired! i need to sleep. got home with a ride from joel.

guess today was a good day cause i get to understand the little things that papa God got me to do that is now reaping the harvest. i thank papa God for the passion to write and i know He has blessed me with all the words that i have written in this blog. so you guys are literately hearing from papa God. i can feel so much of papa God's grace on me as i saw how i was able to process so much more things that i used to be able to. there is just so much more now!

alright! time to go to sleep... and for today's Quote of the Day...

Quote of the Day
people do observe how you live your life and how you behave. make sure you are making your father proud!

funny tuesday outing...

woke up today ready for a good day in class... HMC in the morning and TPSW in the afternoon... ready for an encounter with wolverine...

went to school in the morning and saw our newest addition to the school. mr lionel ngooi! hahaha... second day in school and i guess it was exciting as well as a new chapter in his life. way to go bro... press on! HMC class was normal except that it came with a quiz after the break. haha! need to study and read more man! haha! TPSW class is much more interesting and enriching. as usual, the reactions of wolverine always amuses me...

left class early and went out to town with jiewei, gerlynn, jj, rasul and cass to chill. went to apple store @ cine first to send jj's ipod in for repair but was told that it can't be done. oh well... apple's fast moving product invention is just killing lots of old products. haha... anyway, they saw a pretty girl and it's jj new iGirl! haha... one of the girls working at the counter of the apple store.

went down to NYDC heeren and chilled there. diana, nicole ad william came along to join us there. spent like 1 hour there talking and laughing at jiewei. it was fun! there's going to be a special surprise for jiewei tomorrow. he will remember it for life! hahaha... after that, went with william, jiewei, rasul, cass and jj to have dinner at cine food court. cass left after dinner to go home while to guys went on a CS and winning eleven romp at cine e-games but not before going to the arcade for some daytona and ddr actions. william is just like a big kid and he totally remind me of big jamie. (in size and also the kid-ish thingy...) haha!

played winning eleven with william and totally whoop him! haha! well, from a "i'm going to go home early today" remark before we reached town, i ended up going home at 12am. oh gosh! crazy man... but i guess it was a good break for me. haha!

well, so did i learn any thing today? of course i did! i am beginning to understand how papa God actually thinks! He wants to give me the best and the most enjoyable things that i like to me but that cannot become a lifestyle for me. i really enjoy going to town and just hanging out like today but i understand the call i have on my life and i know that that lifestyle is something that would not be a common feature in my life. once in awhile, papa God will allow me to experience it but not totally soak into it. for me, i understand the love of papa God as He wants me to walk a path that i would not be familiar of. a path that is going to need lots of discipline. He knows that is the best for me and that's what i need in my life. i'm understanding more of His love for me. it might be painful and tough at times but i know that it's those times that is going to make me stronger and better. i am looking forward to the day where He will say "yes! you can go" to me... i love You papa God!

anyway, something that i realised about human beings. we can be quite sensitive sometimes when we are in the midst of some misunderstandings. we tend to want to know whether the other person is saying anything bad behind our backs. it's human but i also know it's because of past experiences that have not been dealt with, pains not healed and hurts and anger not released, that is bringing this aspect of human being out. i thank papa God for always being there and allowing us to bring all those bad experiences, pains, hurt and anger to Him. He can heal us and will heal us. that's the assurance that i always get from papa God.

So You Would Come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small,
Broken hearts, broken lives,
He will take them all.
The power of the Word,
The power of His blood,
Ev'rything was done
So you would come.

Before the world began,
You were on His mind.
And ev'ry tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son,
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.

Nothing you can do,
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done,
Could make Him close the door.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son.
Ev'rything was done,
So you would come.

The power of the Word,
The power of His blood,
Everything was done
So you would come.

this song by darlene zschech totally capture the love of papa God to His children. papa God wants us to go to Him and give everything to Him. i love this song and it's one of the favorite worship song that i love to sing. so i hope that even as you read this entry, all the pains,anger, hurts and bad experiences will be given to papa God and you can be free from all the insecurity...

Quote Of The Day
be healed or stay in pain, hurt and anger. up to you to choose.

No School Monday...

was woken up @ 9am with phone calls asking if there is school today and smses confirming that class is cancelled today. went back to sleep after setting phone to silent mode. had a good rest till 12pm. woke up feeling refreshed...

spent 2 hours at queensway shopping centre looking for jersey for the soccer team. went to 2 different shop decided to buy at the second shop because of the good discount and the freebies that was given. haha... singaporean...

got home and start calling everyone to get sizes and numbers confirmation. finally completed it @ 9pm. it was a day of many phone calls... haha! posted our new jersey on the club's blog and tany was the model... a massive total of 35 sets of jerseys. haha... didn't know we had so many players. haha!

anyway, finally finished watching "Click" last night and it is such a good show! i totally can imagine the same things happening in the context of the singaporean family. it is so relevant to us! thank God for directors that comes up with good scripts. these are really god-given ideas. the punch-line came when adam sandler came back from the dream and went home in a joyous state after going through so much things in the dream. he saw a note on the kitchen table with the remote control beside it and morty wrote in the note, "i know you will do the right thing this time" many of us are always looking for the second chance and papa God is the God of second chance. He always looks forward to hearing His children ask for second chance and He's just waiting for the right time to give us the second chance. just like a child, when the child does something wrong, will always go to the father and ask for second chance and always gets it. But because we are so prideful now, we don't ask and often, things just get worse! so be childlike and always ask for the second chance where the father is always waiting to dish out. it is chances that the father wants to give out and not punishments. But often, it is the punishments that allows us to learn. so second chances always come with punishment to make us learn our lesson.

Quote Of The Day
punishment or second chances? It your choice, take it.

slack sunday...

woke up this afternoon feeling the effects of not warming up properly during saturday's game. my calfs were in painful state and had it the whole day. ouch! not a good feeling. woke up late (because i was watching click the night before but didn't finish it. fell asleep after awhile) and by the time i got to church, it was 2.15pm. haha, i know i know... it's was like my first time... anyway, sermon was by pastor lisa yu from bukit panjang methodist church. (it was CAC sunday.) she spoke on 'the marks of a member'. new insights, new understanding.

after service, for the first time in 1 month, i actually went to kopitiam for lunch. went for the favorite teriyaki fried rice. yum yum. it was delicious and shiok! spent an hour there and went back after that to prepare to go for the basketball game.

went to the phillips singapore cup at the indoor stadium with ian, joel, queenie, nicole to watch spain and argentina play each other. (thank you taffy for the free tickets!) it was a sight. every where we turn, there was familiar faces and the conclusion is that the basketball community is just so small in singapore. haha... once you have played in 'B' division, you would have know most of the people in the basketball circle. haha... spain was the big winner of the night. it was nice to see NBA stars in action. Pau Gusol was one of them and he was exciting to watch. nice game, nice atmosphere. the only down point, the emcee stinks! not even close to being normal. just disappointing to heard him.

the arena...

many people...

there was a few moments of exciting movements of the ball and power play but overall, it was a normal game or simply put it, didn't live up to its expectation.

my papa God sponsored ticket for the game...

something to mention about the tickets. heard about the game from ian yesterday but figure out that i won't go cause it cost $15 just to watch the match. went home and prayed that God will provide tickets for me or He will send someone to bless me with the money to watch it. turn on my lappy and got online and taffy msg me and asked if i wanted tickets for the match. turn out that he actually got some spare tickets cause one of his friends teaches in catholic high and have some complimentary tickets because some of the teams went there to run a basketball clinic. thank you papa God! i was just so amazed by papa God that He answered my prayer almost immediately. He really wanted me to enjoy myself and do the things that i like and He provided for it all! not a single cent spent on this. just like a dad would do the necessary things needed to make sure his child is happy, papa God did the exact thing. i felt so loved by papa God. He always like to spring surprises on me. not only did He provide for me, He also provided for friends to come along. so nice... thanks papa God...

got home around 9.30pm and went downstair to the coffee shop to watch the charity shield match between liverpool (my favorite team!) and chelsea, to find out they are not showing it at all! oh my gosh! just totally stupid. no match, so came home to relax and decided to write this entry. just as i am writing this entry, the score is tied at 1-1. hopefully by the time you read this entry, liverpool would have emerged as the winner.

Quote Of The Day
surprises are always fun when you are a child. be a child and enjoy your surprises.

Chicken-filled Saturday... (new pictures added!)

today, as usual, started with soccer in the morning with the guys. met up at NUS but was chased off the field by the security because there was an event running (although the area where we were playing is so far off the event place) and the field was closed. no choice but to make our way down to MDIS to play. whatever it is, we want our soccer. haha! played till like 1pm before we decide to wash up and go for lunch. lunch was chicken rice at margaret drive market.

went back to church after lunch with a bus ride that was hot and stuffy. the aircon was not working properly and due to the body heat generated from the massive crowd that was on the bus, it was really terrible. reached church and went for power hour before worship practice.

dinner after worship practice was at the "four face buddha" eating place behind church. just me and tany, i had barbeque chicken rice. it was alright and not really worth the $3.50 price tag that it has. went home after that. bus ride was a long one due to the fireworks displays that was going on. saw a little bit of it but i was so tired, i fell asleep the whole ride.

got home and had some homecooked food but there was a problem. it was soya sauce chicken. oh my gosh! chicken again... all my meals today evolved around chicken and it was just so crazy! i'm overloaded with chicken... hmm... i'm crazy...

anyway, got on my lappy and saw some messages from people. one was from kim and it's one of those problems again. guess it will never end. i understand now why dean shermen make that statement, "all problems in the world is because of relationship". not just talking about BGR but also friend to friend relationship. again, it's because of mistrust that this is happening! oh well... i guess that something that everyone of us need to learn and go through it. everyone, at a point or another, will definitely have gone through it. the only thing that is different is what we get out of it. either we become hurt and weak because of it or we just get stronger. so it's a choice. for me, i rather become stronger than to feel weak and hurt. why feel hurt and weak when you can choose to be stronger? hahaha... pick the better one...

Quote Of The Day
hurt and weak or stronger? you take your pick...

Planet Shakers Friday...

it was a tiring day (as usual) but then it included lots of happenings especially the night planet shakers concert. it was a blast! just full of happenings.

morning was spent discussing about human and masa communications' project work. in the midst of discussion was also some talks about people in class. it's just human to talk about it. ended up looking at blogs and stuff. many times, that's how bad a friendship can go to when someone breach the trust factor. (no siding here! not supporting anyone...) Once that is broken, the ugly side of people will start coming up and then issue of sensitive topics will occur so often. people talking behind the back of another person. oh well, that's how low the world have gone to. even at this young age (believe me, before you pass the 20 mark, you are still considered young), people are already backstabbing each other and it has become the norm of this generation. the way to pay someone back for what they have done is to stab them deeper and harder that they receive. i always believe in trusting people but in doing that, we need to also exercise some discernment. it's important. not that everyone is untrustable, but it more like to what level can one trust another with things that is sensitive to talk about. this also means that we don't go around and tell people what's happening when the fact is that they don't even want to know. this is actually known as gossiping. nothing good about it and it's just totally disgusting. i guess papa God doesn't like to see us talking behind the back of another of His child. so don't gossip because it will always backfired and end up with you being the end receiver of the pain. so why bother? don't even go there. you weight it and be true to yourself about it. are you gossiping too much or is gossiping taking a toll on you? how many friendships have been broken because of it?

Now to the finale!

went to the planet shakers concert and was blown away by it! it was just so crazy! thousands of youth gathering at max pavilion @ expo is just so cool! we went after dinner around 6.30pm and there was already a long queue forming. we went in and the place was just so cool! there was a large standing area infront of the stage. on the two side of the stage was 2 bungee jumping station. talk about radical christianity man... then before the worship start, we had cool games with cool dances move before the pros came on to do a number with one of the planetshakers songs. by then, a group of us have already formed the mosh pit. we were ready for some mosh actions! worship started and then it was time to rock! for the first time in my life, i actually got stitch from jumping too much! it was a really good time! the mosh pit actions were crazy and i actually got a small cut on my lips because of it.

In the midst of all these actions, i felt papa God telling me something about this whole new generation of children that He's bringing up. me, jh and jason was walking to the place when we realised that so many of them are so young and we are actually like so old compared to them. most of them are like secondary school students. new generations.

This was what i felt papa God saying to me.

I don't want a generation that is passive about her worship. I want a generation that is passionate, vocal and believeing. a generation that live the same way as her worship. a generation that is so radical in her living that the wants of the world becomes a tiny sand in the beach. young people who will go out into the streets to take it for Jesus. they will understand their identities n such a way that their live are lived solely for My purpose. they will know the great-ness of Me in a big way. mega way!

because of this, i decided to write a song titled Live For Jesus. i will try to finish it by the end of the week and put it up so that you guys can listen to it.

so there is a new generation that God is raising up in this nation. a generation that will far exceed the passion and love for God that my generation had.

was just talking to clarielle while writing this entry and realised how thankful i am still being given an opportunity to study at my age. i'm looking forward to more things and now even the thought of maybe going back to bible school excite me. that might be my next move. i'd never know...

anyway, couldn't get any photos from the planet shakers concert now but will post them up the moment i get it.

Quote Of The Day
Gossips also comes back to you. so why bother to start?

a fast day... really fast...

well... today's gonna be short. woke up at 12pm without first throwing my handphone to a corner due to its irritating snooze alarm. haha... that's the first time that i actually did that. wondered what came over me? tired-ness?

once again, thursday was a stay home day with lots of quietness accompanying her. i'm starting to get into this routine of having quietness in my life on a regular basis. i guess it's important. need it so much for my well-being and my spirit. i'm enjoying this "spiritual" time. spent some time reading and then did some adjustment to my lappy. by the time i was done, it was time to leave for sim lim. went to check out the price of external harddisks. expensive expensive but i need one. gonna pray for one. met jh, ben and jason for dinner at ps after a full roam of sim lim.

dinner was at carls junior. had a gigantic burger, some chilli fries and lots of diet coke. (thank You papa God for free flow diet cokes!) after dinner entertainment was a walk around ps and then proceeding to jason's house to watch tokyo drift. (third time i'm watching it! jh and ben haven't watch it so no choice.)

ben and jh @ jason's house

spent some time in the arcade of ps watching people play arcade games and stuff. realised how money-wasting and time-wasting it is. how could someone spend such precious life-time playing arcade? most of the people that i saw was working adults that's in their late 20s. that's the curse of satan on the generations. He wants to make people busy. keeping them at work late so often that when you're free to leave the office early, you don't know what to do. you start roaming the streets and get into this whole feeling of loneliness and lostness. that's why people go clubbing after work because they are afraid that the moment they reach home, the quietness and emptiness will kill them. purposes in life just doesn't exist. the whole cycle of life just becomes normal. live your life and die and that is it! the whole joy of life the way a child have doesn't exist anymore because people are so hurt and filled with so much pain. they start hiding their true self, becomes wary of people, suppressing the child within themselves which desires to be freed and slowly they get consumed by their own desires. desires to be rich, desires to have things, desires to be in the status club of society. here i am not just talking about people not from church but even christians that grew up in church becomes like that when they lose focus of the life purposes that papa God have given them. don't go down that path because it's painful! i'd gone down there many many times and i know how painful it is. move away from that place. stay in the path that papa God have given you. trust me, life will be more fulfulling, exciting and enjoyable that way. life should be exciting! but exciting not in the sense where sex is a constant feature in it. a exciting life comprises of a daily discovery of yourself and for me, a daily discovery of papa God and receiving of revelations from Him. know yourself. it's important...

anyway, back to the day. jun had reg and jeannie over at her house for dinner and a fordue party! only managed to have one mashmellow. oh well... good for my well-being. left for home at 11.45pm to safely not miss our last bus. it sucks missing the last bus and worst still, you see it leaving. not a good feeling. not at all...

well... you'll ask me how did i get all these theories about life and why is it so much "christian-nised" (if there is such a term). firstly, i'm a christian! secondly, i'll tell you that i lived long enough to know it and also because i bother to process many things that i see and all this i learn also because of the relationship that i have with papa God. i have learnt to always ask papa God what He wants to tell me everyday. it grows out of a love for papa God and He always wants to share secrets about life to His childrens. it is always important to not just live life as it is but to discover it. discovering it will make it more fun and happening. i hope that in your reading of my blog, your thoughts about life will be stirred and the way you live your life will be challenged. i'm not here to tell you that you need Jesus in your life (although i'm willing to share more with you if you want to) but to use this blog to challenge you to know the precious-ness of your life through the daily happenings of my life. so yea, live your life without regrets will be what my old man will tell me and i have come to know the importance of it. so it's totally up to you to choose.

oh man... it's another long one in the end. guess it's the joy of writing. once i start, i can't stop. hope you have enjoyed yourself till this point.

Quote Of The Day
Life: don't just live it. discover it and enjoy it.

Happy National Day! Singapore!

Woke up to a nice National Day! The day where Singapore enters into the 41th year of her existance. Just like israelites entering the promise land after 40 years in the desert, i believe that Singapore is entering into her promised destiny. The antioch of asia. how cool... i could feel the excitement in the spiritual realm. it's just so thick with God's presence.

It was missy krystal butler's birthday today! a big group of us went down to her house to surprise her and also to spend some time with her and her mum. it was so funny! jiahao and i arrived at 2pm and they were already getting ready some stuff to surprise krystal with. balloons were the norm and the flowers were a plus! each of us actually wrote something for her and tied it to a stalk of flower which we placed all over her house. it was such a nice and pleasant view. so sweet... she came home at about 3.30pm and we had a wild time surprising her. oh well... not so much a surprise but i'm sure she was glad that we were there. haha... food was fabulous! (especially the curry tao pok! and the ben & jerry's ice cream too!) it was a nice time. old memorises coming back...

happy birthday krystal!

other crazy times...

oh well the afternoon was spent in krystal's house. a group of us left for justin's house after that. we spent some time doing foosball and justin's taylor. it feels good. jiahao and i sent the girls to marina south (they were going for steamboat buffet with classmates but we wished them luck as by the time we got there, the place was packed with people. not a single sight of a empty table!) and headed home after that.

got home and decided not to play bassie out. (the story goes back to krystal's house where we talked about playing mahjong at the wongs residence.) took a long bus ride to toh yi. watched the ending of the national day parade, played mahjong and had a good zhi char dinner packed from the zhi char store at S11. stayed till 11.30 and caught the second last bus home with xiang.

so the big questions. what's so exciting about today? well, many of us are so caught up with programs that we totally forgot about time with friends isn't focused on the activity but more of the relationships that are being build through it. we always need to understand that although programs are the things that brings people together, we must know that the program is not always the most important. just like when we are young, playing with our own toys are always fun but when friends are included, it's always a memorable one. i get excited whenever i get to spend time with my close friends because those are really fun times! not just because of the things that we do or the program, but because we know that when we are together, there is nothing to hide. you can just be childish for all i care but i'll still love you the same! we all be kids when we are together. it's just so precious. so so so precious.

Quote Of The Day
how you spend your time with your friends determine the level of friendship you have with them.

DAY OF HIS POWER!

today proved to be a significant day... not just for me but for Singapore too...

day started officially @ 2pm today. (not counting the waking up @10am to watch "meet the fockers") went to class and got ready to learn some stuff from ms benita. talked about presentation and how to present ourselves during presentation and interviews. then she went into the whole life purpose talk and talked about how we should choose our career wisely and that we should pursue our dreams and interests rather than trying to earn the bucks. it was out of the world! on the day where the 40 days fast was suppose to end, ms benita actually talk about life purpose. now i'm hearing what God is saying to me! she is cool! follow my dreams! fulfill my passion....

anyway, class ended at 4.45pm and me, eddie and jas headed down to city hall. (we spent 20mins at the queenstown station waiting for jas...) had dinner at BK and off i went to indoor stadium for "day of His power prayer" meeting held by love singapore. a finale of the 40 days fast, it was a significant time of prayer and intercessions. there was 3 different waves of prayer and intercessions with a grand finale. the whole indoor stadium was packed with prayer warriors. it was cool... real cool... worship was led by the Joshua 21 team with our dear mr wong as one of the backup singers. he did a one verse solo of "take me deeper".

worshipping with our handphones...

First Wave...

we had a time of praying for consecration , communion and then revival prayers for singapore. the communion pack was so funny. too bad i didn't have a picture of it.

Second Wave...

then we watch a video and pastor lawrence khong came up and led us in prayers for the nations in 4 different arenas. (Church, Government, Marketplace and Media) the things that they were praying for was exactly the ones that i wrote in yesterday's post. i am amazed by the power of God. i can feel it coming back. he also had prophetic words for Singapore. we had a good time declaring the name of the Lord at the end of this wave.

Third Wave...

third wave began with pastor eugene seow challenging us to give radically and big to the Lord. one thing that he said that really made my day was "hope is when we live the dream of God out". it was so clear in defining the term hope. now i understand that the only hope that we have is to dream God's dreams. only way that we can receive hope! i am blown away but the things that God is teaching me today. then pastor rick seaward came up to lead us to pray for Singapore and then the nations. as usual, the final was left to the most important nation. East Timor. spent the last bit of it praying for East Timor.

Grand Finale

the finale was a significant time. it started with a young girl singing "it takes only a sparks" and her leading the whole stadium in a declaration of faith. it was such a power time of declaring God's power in Singapore. significant for Singapore as she enters into the ending hours of a 40 years journey. Then pastor eugene seow came up again and this time, he hit the bull's eye. he felt the Lord wanting Singapore to come back to being a child and to be childlike! Ouch! pain! but worth it... it confirmed the purpose of this blog. share on how to be a child and childlike at heart.

eunice and sheena
jiahao, chen hwa and william

i met this two girls from St hilda's church where i was sitting and had a good time praying with them. oh by the way, their names are eunice and sheena. (hope i spell it correctly!) both of them are studying in NUS' Arts. apparently eunice's grand parents are from our very own kum yan cantonese worship. small world or rather God appointed. i saw how kum yan is being used in blessing the older generations.

mr cornelius quek... going back in 2 days time...

once again, i had time to catch up with some people and it was nice. nice to see jennifer and john, gary and joanna, kelvin (the guitarist) and cornelius again. found out that cornelius is going back to the states to finish his last one year of seminary. bless you bro!

adicolor? pirated?

saw this on jo's belt and it was so funny. i asked her if it's a pirated belt from china but apparently it's actually limited edition from adidas. (maybe i'm being a mountain turtle) costed $39 from city hall. haha... oh well... it just remind me of brands from china like rien bao (reebok) or qiao dan (jordan). hahaha... old memories...

after the prayer meeting, went to lavander foodcourt to have supper with ian, joel, joanne, beatrice, jakins, noelle, queenie, keith and jael but not before going to geylang (our inital choice but it was just too crowded and hard to find parking) and then jian tao jian (it was closed). it was crazy! hahaha... had our dose of our favorite wanton noodle and the pancake. good food alway satisfy! thank You papa God for giving us the choice of choosing our food.

i thank papa God for the things that He shown me today. now i am more than ready to do the will of papa God and the passions that He have given me. i am ready to run the race again. now i want to run it like a marathon runner, not a sprinter. i am going to persever all the way till the will and dreams of God is fulfilled in my life.

By the time i got home, it was 12.30am. long day but important...

Quote Of The Day
Be a child and live like one. dream like a child and you will soar. hope is when we live God's dream out.

mondays blue? no way...

well... as usual, people will ask if i ever get the mondays blue... well my answer is yes! everyone gets it but what's different is how you deal with it... for me, i chose to live with it and rather to sulk, i'll be happy! it's perceptions... don't let emotions control you and be a slave to it but you control your own emotions. well, i'm not telling you to be fake or to put on a emotional mask here... but it's more of not letting emotions overrun your life and rule it...

anyway, it was the usual mdis style school day with half the class missing and with another one quarter having their own conversations. morning was filled with laughters and joy because of the comical lecturer we have. he is just so hilarious! he acts a bit girly but i don't think he is gay. well somehow, i guess he is more attach to the feminine side of his hormones... afternoon was the usual confrontation with mr wolverine... but he was on the quiet side today. guess wolves have their off days too... hahaha! evening was spent playing tennis @ NUS.

came home from tennis and was feeling a little tired but decided that i should write the blog, come online for awhile and then go off to watch a movie on my lappy. happened to watch the new channel 8 drama serial and realised how much the culture have changed. the serials nowadays talks about how to pick up girls, marry and divorce if it doesn't work out... where has the moral values, that Singapore once lived under, gone to? after watching it, i was so disturbed in the spirit! this is the kind of values that our next generation is being brought up with! Singapore need to come back to the foundational values that we were established on since the founding of our nation. kids shouldn't be brought up with these kinds of values. i cannot imagine the kind of youths that we will have in 5 - 10 years time. we need to pray! we need to intercede! we need to stand in the gap! sow into the next generation...

if you are a christian and you are reading this, just spend 10 mins praying for the youths of Singapore and the next generation that is coming up...
Pray for...
1. God to send His angels to protect the youths of Singapore from all these ungodly values.
2. God to redeem the entertainment arena of Singapore.
3. directors and actors to be raised up to produce show with good moral values.
4. youths from churches will rise up to their call and be a light in their schools and among their friends. (they are the very people who can actually reach out to the youths in the streets, they will redeem their own generation.)

God hears every prayer and especially generation redeeming prayers... so if you think that your prayers are not important, you are wrong! the prayers of every saints will be gathered and put into a incense bowl and when it overflows, the blessing of God will flow into the nations! so pray! start praying!

tomorrow is the day of His power prayer meeting at the indoor stadium. i want to go and see how God will change Singapore. i am excited... i am ready...

Quote Of The Day

you deserve to choose and set your own culture.

p/s: sorry... no pictures today... nothing exciting to take anyway... smile!

finally... it's over...

today was a good day.... it was a time of release and rejourney back to being the person that i am...

day started with lunch with pa. we had lunch at the usual place and i filled myself up with my favorite pork chop... haha... nice and good...

reached church at 12.30 to get ready for the "meeting". it was nervous at the start but guess God came to guide me and it was releasing. met ms A at dome and we talked. talked about everything that i felt and finally, i got to say what i waited to say for the past 1 month plus. thankfully it didn't turn out bad but rather it was smooth and clear cut. we are friends and that's all about it. no more hiding and trying to figure out if there is anything going on. shiok! time to move on to do what i need to do... worship here i come.... by the time we were done, it was 2pm. rushed back to church for service.

ian spoke today and totally redefined my understanding of papa God's love for me. now i understand why papa God have to keep His blessings away from us because He knows that unless we reached that level where we will appreciate the blessings, we will not enjoy it. thank You papa God! i love You! just like how a child always wants more sweet but never thought of the effects of it. how the sweet actually cause tooth decay. the child just concentrates on getting the sweet and eating the sweet but never learned to enjoy the sweet. it's only when we grow up where we learn how to enjoy sweet and knowing that eating 1 sweet can actually satisfy one person already. haha...

just before the worship started

went to festival of praise after service. it was a real good time worshipping with other brothers and sisters from the church of Singapore.

the ccc band...

it was a blast! the band from CCC (Christian City Church) Sydney Australia was so happening! once again, i felt like i'm back to the old times when i was younger and able to jump up and down! haha... it felt really good! it was a original worship from down under! haha! way to go aussies!

mr don moen's worship

then we had mr don moen to lead us in another worship with some old hits! haha... it was really powerful... i missed all the old songs and it really spoke so much to me! i saw the heart of don moen. how he leads worship with a heart of a child wanting to give everything to papa God. he was just so cool and so peaceful and when he starts singing, everyone just listen and quieten down. it was just so much of God in him and so much adoration for papa God. another thing to mention is the band! they are just so so so so so so so good! they gel so well and understand each other so well. the true model of a modern worship band. let's go ky! time to move up the bar!

i really felt so good today! it wasn't like a sad day for me because above all things, i got to move on in my life and that's what i have been waiting for the last 2 years! it's just so releasing and free to experience it now! i thank papa God for giving me the go ahead to talk to ms A today! i'm just so glad that everything is over now! i'm just waiting for God's call to move and off i will go! i want to soar with Him! above the storm i will soar with Him! papa God... it's my turn now....

Fulfilling Saturday.... as usual...

once again... the saturday started @ 8am... went for the usual saturday soccer @ NUS with the guys and tiring was the word to describe it. we play under the blistering sun for 2 hours and it really killed us! it was just pure torturing. lunch was settled at our new hangout place... NUS arts canteen! the food was fanstastic but the price was the main attraction. it's so cheap that i felt like i'm back in my old primary school! anyway, she came today and left after awhile.

went back to church after that. jason, me, ben wu, merv, lionel and kevin decided to go to macs to chill out and have sundaes. haha... good chilling guys... went back to church after that to play with the english worship team. haha... it was fun...

spent 1/2 hour on the train ride to woodlands just sleeping. haha... the ride was really funny. the girl that was sitting beside me fell asleep and had that jerking motion going on whenever she almost lean on me. it's was just super funny! haha... she did that all the way from somerset mrt till woodlands mrt. wahahaha... well... went down to woodlands carepoint to teach guitar playing. my monthly commitment...

went for dinner with jiahao, jason, alwyn, ben wu and reg @ tiong bahru! hahaha... had lor mee, lor mai kai, fishball, beef hor fun, char kway teow, duck rice, ice kachang, fried rice... filling!!!! hahaha... well reg bought me a pack of indo mee... hahaha... funny...

well... again, we talked about miscommunication that happens when issues are not addressed. many times, miscommunication happens because one party assume that things are alright or settled without consulting the other party. that's where the communication breaks down. assuming is always the easiest way out but we never realise that it's actually the start of many problems to come. just like how people always assume someone is with another person just because they are always together. these are the scary people. they don't ask you but in their hearts, they already categorize you based on what they see on the outside. so never never assume things until you clarify. it will help you lots in your life. don't be too assuming...

just a preview of what we had...

Quote Of The Day
Never assume anything until you clarify with that person. It's not alway the same as you see on the outside

Friday...

haha... today started with the worst of the worst... went to school and realised that i actually don't have class in the afternoon because my tutorial is actually next week and that the morning class was just a short one. finally got my TDMC project on the way... i'm going to be doing the israel's attack on lebanon but on aspects of broadcast media. going to be challenging. videos again... oh mine... haha... ended up going for the afternoon class cause i had nothing to do. oh well... but managed to talk to dana, hazel and michelle! (haha! come think about it, it's really the first time i'm talking to michelle.) realised many people actually reads my blog! haha... my purpose is achieved. hazel asked me what i meant in my blog and turned out that it was actually a misinterpretation of her blog or in actual fact, she wrote in a wrong way. oh well, still it doesn't affect what i wrote in my blog.

anyway didn't do much and ended up in town again with jiewei, rasul, marcus and his friends. along the way came theresa and hyde. jiewei wanted to cut his hair and made 7 of us wait outside for him while he cut his hair. (i left halfway to go meet someone. wonder how his hair turned out...) it's just crazy going out with them everytime. it's like a bunch of kids running wild in the playground. haha!

it was to church for living room prayer and it was such a refreshing time. refreshing time of connecting back to the singapore call. a refreshing time to reconnecting back to the family. prayed for singapore and all, the 7 arenas.

anyway, just realised that there is so much backstabbing in class and it's just scary! school started only for 4 months and so much things have happened. this is the kind of things that i'm talking about! a child grows up and along the way, picks up so much insecurities and pain, all thanks to things like that! throw it away man... in the end, what matters most is whether you believe in yourself and as long as you believe in yourself and know yourself, other people's opinions doesn't matter! why spend so much time on trying to get people on your side when you know that the same people can also do the same thing to you? why bother? be yourself and if people accept you, they will be around you. look for friends that will last a lifetime rather than the temporary. it's not worth it. friends are suppose to be lifelong. it's that kind of friendship that will bring you through life. friends that are always ready to listen to you and advice you on thing even when it seem to hurt with the kind of advice that comes out of tough love. friends aint there to make you feel good. they are there to make sure you are on the right track and living your life purpose out. another aspect of being childlike is to have the maturity to be friends with people but when times where pain and hurts ae involved, you are able to talk it out and not "don't friend you liao!" kind of respond. so choose because you have the right to choose!

Quote Of the Day
Choose your friends wisely. it's those, who are willing to stand with you in times of pain and hurts, that will last a lifetime.

Stay Home Thursday...

today's a stay home day for me. one whole week of being out of the house every day makes this day even more important and significant. important because i really need to be alone and to to do my stuff. significant because although i'm going out with my classmates everyday, i still am not caught in that cycle of having to go out everyday.

woke up @ 11.30am. needed to rest from yesterday's battering from soccer and going out. it was a good rest. decide to wash my boots and to pack up my messy table. (i dislike things to be messy but due to school, it was inevitable.) whenever i study, my table will be so messy but always didn't have the strength to clear up after because i always head to bed immediately or at least after i do my quiet time. finally did it today and satisfaction was the word to describe my feeling after that. spent some time talking to people on msn and hazelles was one of those that i talked to. read her blog and got some revelations! haha! oh well.. that's me... i always look, watch and then process.

my clean and tidy table... finally...

my soccer boots... once again shiny and clean...
with no funky smell from yesterday's mud...

read hazel's blog and saw some of her feelings. (don't worry hazel. i'm not criticizing you. it's my personal thoughts. it's something that i had gone through too. i think you are bold to even write it in your blog). i saw how a relationship that didn't work out would often result in something that wasn't even suppose to be there in the first place. how a action can be interpreted in such a way. now i understand why papa God gave us the Holy Spirit. so that we can see in the spiritual and be guided even in such things. even as a child, many times the way we interpret message is by how we feel or what experiences we have with the source. like a child, who had a bad experience with chilli, will alway refuse to take anything with chilli in it or anything that has the word in it. like chilli soup from dan ryan isn't spicy at all but because of the word chilli being part of the name, it will alway be avoided by the child. so in the same way, any actions towards the person that you have a failed relationship with will also be interpreted in the negative way. any mention of that name will trigger off a long list of hurts that is hidden somewhere in the heart. the best way to get rid of this is to give it all to papa God. papa God will always be there... always waiting for us to give all our pains to Him.

had dinner around 8 plus... dinner was the normal mixed veg rice from the coffee shop downstair. i had rice and my sis had porridge... the teochew porridge kind. haha... good dinner and just totally filling. haha...

the dinner that me and my sis had...

see! this is the kind of dinner that i'm so used to when i was young. chinese food and all. now, it's the normal burgers and fries or the frequent carbonara. i used to be excited when i was young when it comes to dinner. it was the time where i get to eat my mum's home cooked food and nothing beats that! i remember that when i was in primary school, i always wanted the school bus driver to drive faster because i was getting excited to eat the food that my mum would prepare for dinner. the soups and especially the soya sauce chicken and the nonya tao pok... yum yum... haha... but now, because of so much commitments outside of family, dinner was a rarity, limited only to occassional sundays or chinese new year. i miss it so much. tried to come back for dinner more often on sundays but somehow, always ended up eating outside with friends. the moment we grow up, dinner with family becomes secondary and friends becomes first. why? dinner with friends are more important now. oh well, wish i can go back to being a child and rush back home for dinner everyday. haha... i love mummy's food! sorry mummy... thank you mummy for always cooking for the family even when you don't feel like it. *smuck!

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you choose what you want to see or hear. choose the better feeling one.