No School Monday...

was woken up @ 9am with phone calls asking if there is school today and smses confirming that class is cancelled today. went back to sleep after setting phone to silent mode. had a good rest till 12pm. woke up feeling refreshed...

spent 2 hours at queensway shopping centre looking for jersey for the soccer team. went to 2 different shop decided to buy at the second shop because of the good discount and the freebies that was given. haha... singaporean...

got home and start calling everyone to get sizes and numbers confirmation. finally completed it @ 9pm. it was a day of many phone calls... haha! posted our new jersey on the club's blog and tany was the model... a massive total of 35 sets of jerseys. haha... didn't know we had so many players. haha!

anyway, finally finished watching "Click" last night and it is such a good show! i totally can imagine the same things happening in the context of the singaporean family. it is so relevant to us! thank God for directors that comes up with good scripts. these are really god-given ideas. the punch-line came when adam sandler came back from the dream and went home in a joyous state after going through so much things in the dream. he saw a note on the kitchen table with the remote control beside it and morty wrote in the note, "i know you will do the right thing this time" many of us are always looking for the second chance and papa God is the God of second chance. He always looks forward to hearing His children ask for second chance and He's just waiting for the right time to give us the second chance. just like a child, when the child does something wrong, will always go to the father and ask for second chance and always gets it. But because we are so prideful now, we don't ask and often, things just get worse! so be childlike and always ask for the second chance where the father is always waiting to dish out. it is chances that the father wants to give out and not punishments. But often, it is the punishments that allows us to learn. so second chances always come with punishment to make us learn our lesson.

Quote Of The Day
punishment or second chances? It your choice, take it.

slack sunday...

woke up this afternoon feeling the effects of not warming up properly during saturday's game. my calfs were in painful state and had it the whole day. ouch! not a good feeling. woke up late (because i was watching click the night before but didn't finish it. fell asleep after awhile) and by the time i got to church, it was 2.15pm. haha, i know i know... it's was like my first time... anyway, sermon was by pastor lisa yu from bukit panjang methodist church. (it was CAC sunday.) she spoke on 'the marks of a member'. new insights, new understanding.

after service, for the first time in 1 month, i actually went to kopitiam for lunch. went for the favorite teriyaki fried rice. yum yum. it was delicious and shiok! spent an hour there and went back after that to prepare to go for the basketball game.

went to the phillips singapore cup at the indoor stadium with ian, joel, queenie, nicole to watch spain and argentina play each other. (thank you taffy for the free tickets!) it was a sight. every where we turn, there was familiar faces and the conclusion is that the basketball community is just so small in singapore. haha... once you have played in 'B' division, you would have know most of the people in the basketball circle. haha... spain was the big winner of the night. it was nice to see NBA stars in action. Pau Gusol was one of them and he was exciting to watch. nice game, nice atmosphere. the only down point, the emcee stinks! not even close to being normal. just disappointing to heard him.

the arena...

many people...

there was a few moments of exciting movements of the ball and power play but overall, it was a normal game or simply put it, didn't live up to its expectation.

my papa God sponsored ticket for the game...

something to mention about the tickets. heard about the game from ian yesterday but figure out that i won't go cause it cost $15 just to watch the match. went home and prayed that God will provide tickets for me or He will send someone to bless me with the money to watch it. turn on my lappy and got online and taffy msg me and asked if i wanted tickets for the match. turn out that he actually got some spare tickets cause one of his friends teaches in catholic high and have some complimentary tickets because some of the teams went there to run a basketball clinic. thank you papa God! i was just so amazed by papa God that He answered my prayer almost immediately. He really wanted me to enjoy myself and do the things that i like and He provided for it all! not a single cent spent on this. just like a dad would do the necessary things needed to make sure his child is happy, papa God did the exact thing. i felt so loved by papa God. He always like to spring surprises on me. not only did He provide for me, He also provided for friends to come along. so nice... thanks papa God...

got home around 9.30pm and went downstair to the coffee shop to watch the charity shield match between liverpool (my favorite team!) and chelsea, to find out they are not showing it at all! oh my gosh! just totally stupid. no match, so came home to relax and decided to write this entry. just as i am writing this entry, the score is tied at 1-1. hopefully by the time you read this entry, liverpool would have emerged as the winner.

Quote Of The Day
surprises are always fun when you are a child. be a child and enjoy your surprises.

Chicken-filled Saturday... (new pictures added!)

today, as usual, started with soccer in the morning with the guys. met up at NUS but was chased off the field by the security because there was an event running (although the area where we were playing is so far off the event place) and the field was closed. no choice but to make our way down to MDIS to play. whatever it is, we want our soccer. haha! played till like 1pm before we decide to wash up and go for lunch. lunch was chicken rice at margaret drive market.

went back to church after lunch with a bus ride that was hot and stuffy. the aircon was not working properly and due to the body heat generated from the massive crowd that was on the bus, it was really terrible. reached church and went for power hour before worship practice.

dinner after worship practice was at the "four face buddha" eating place behind church. just me and tany, i had barbeque chicken rice. it was alright and not really worth the $3.50 price tag that it has. went home after that. bus ride was a long one due to the fireworks displays that was going on. saw a little bit of it but i was so tired, i fell asleep the whole ride.

got home and had some homecooked food but there was a problem. it was soya sauce chicken. oh my gosh! chicken again... all my meals today evolved around chicken and it was just so crazy! i'm overloaded with chicken... hmm... i'm crazy...

anyway, got on my lappy and saw some messages from people. one was from kim and it's one of those problems again. guess it will never end. i understand now why dean shermen make that statement, "all problems in the world is because of relationship". not just talking about BGR but also friend to friend relationship. again, it's because of mistrust that this is happening! oh well... i guess that something that everyone of us need to learn and go through it. everyone, at a point or another, will definitely have gone through it. the only thing that is different is what we get out of it. either we become hurt and weak because of it or we just get stronger. so it's a choice. for me, i rather become stronger than to feel weak and hurt. why feel hurt and weak when you can choose to be stronger? hahaha... pick the better one...

Quote Of The Day
hurt and weak or stronger? you take your pick...

Planet Shakers Friday...

it was a tiring day (as usual) but then it included lots of happenings especially the night planet shakers concert. it was a blast! just full of happenings.

morning was spent discussing about human and masa communications' project work. in the midst of discussion was also some talks about people in class. it's just human to talk about it. ended up looking at blogs and stuff. many times, that's how bad a friendship can go to when someone breach the trust factor. (no siding here! not supporting anyone...) Once that is broken, the ugly side of people will start coming up and then issue of sensitive topics will occur so often. people talking behind the back of another person. oh well, that's how low the world have gone to. even at this young age (believe me, before you pass the 20 mark, you are still considered young), people are already backstabbing each other and it has become the norm of this generation. the way to pay someone back for what they have done is to stab them deeper and harder that they receive. i always believe in trusting people but in doing that, we need to also exercise some discernment. it's important. not that everyone is untrustable, but it more like to what level can one trust another with things that is sensitive to talk about. this also means that we don't go around and tell people what's happening when the fact is that they don't even want to know. this is actually known as gossiping. nothing good about it and it's just totally disgusting. i guess papa God doesn't like to see us talking behind the back of another of His child. so don't gossip because it will always backfired and end up with you being the end receiver of the pain. so why bother? don't even go there. you weight it and be true to yourself about it. are you gossiping too much or is gossiping taking a toll on you? how many friendships have been broken because of it?

Now to the finale!

went to the planet shakers concert and was blown away by it! it was just so crazy! thousands of youth gathering at max pavilion @ expo is just so cool! we went after dinner around 6.30pm and there was already a long queue forming. we went in and the place was just so cool! there was a large standing area infront of the stage. on the two side of the stage was 2 bungee jumping station. talk about radical christianity man... then before the worship start, we had cool games with cool dances move before the pros came on to do a number with one of the planetshakers songs. by then, a group of us have already formed the mosh pit. we were ready for some mosh actions! worship started and then it was time to rock! for the first time in my life, i actually got stitch from jumping too much! it was a really good time! the mosh pit actions were crazy and i actually got a small cut on my lips because of it.

In the midst of all these actions, i felt papa God telling me something about this whole new generation of children that He's bringing up. me, jh and jason was walking to the place when we realised that so many of them are so young and we are actually like so old compared to them. most of them are like secondary school students. new generations.

This was what i felt papa God saying to me.

I don't want a generation that is passive about her worship. I want a generation that is passionate, vocal and believeing. a generation that live the same way as her worship. a generation that is so radical in her living that the wants of the world becomes a tiny sand in the beach. young people who will go out into the streets to take it for Jesus. they will understand their identities n such a way that their live are lived solely for My purpose. they will know the great-ness of Me in a big way. mega way!

because of this, i decided to write a song titled Live For Jesus. i will try to finish it by the end of the week and put it up so that you guys can listen to it.

so there is a new generation that God is raising up in this nation. a generation that will far exceed the passion and love for God that my generation had.

was just talking to clarielle while writing this entry and realised how thankful i am still being given an opportunity to study at my age. i'm looking forward to more things and now even the thought of maybe going back to bible school excite me. that might be my next move. i'd never know...

anyway, couldn't get any photos from the planet shakers concert now but will post them up the moment i get it.

Quote Of The Day
Gossips also comes back to you. so why bother to start?

a fast day... really fast...

well... today's gonna be short. woke up at 12pm without first throwing my handphone to a corner due to its irritating snooze alarm. haha... that's the first time that i actually did that. wondered what came over me? tired-ness?

once again, thursday was a stay home day with lots of quietness accompanying her. i'm starting to get into this routine of having quietness in my life on a regular basis. i guess it's important. need it so much for my well-being and my spirit. i'm enjoying this "spiritual" time. spent some time reading and then did some adjustment to my lappy. by the time i was done, it was time to leave for sim lim. went to check out the price of external harddisks. expensive expensive but i need one. gonna pray for one. met jh, ben and jason for dinner at ps after a full roam of sim lim.

dinner was at carls junior. had a gigantic burger, some chilli fries and lots of diet coke. (thank You papa God for free flow diet cokes!) after dinner entertainment was a walk around ps and then proceeding to jason's house to watch tokyo drift. (third time i'm watching it! jh and ben haven't watch it so no choice.)

ben and jh @ jason's house

spent some time in the arcade of ps watching people play arcade games and stuff. realised how money-wasting and time-wasting it is. how could someone spend such precious life-time playing arcade? most of the people that i saw was working adults that's in their late 20s. that's the curse of satan on the generations. He wants to make people busy. keeping them at work late so often that when you're free to leave the office early, you don't know what to do. you start roaming the streets and get into this whole feeling of loneliness and lostness. that's why people go clubbing after work because they are afraid that the moment they reach home, the quietness and emptiness will kill them. purposes in life just doesn't exist. the whole cycle of life just becomes normal. live your life and die and that is it! the whole joy of life the way a child have doesn't exist anymore because people are so hurt and filled with so much pain. they start hiding their true self, becomes wary of people, suppressing the child within themselves which desires to be freed and slowly they get consumed by their own desires. desires to be rich, desires to have things, desires to be in the status club of society. here i am not just talking about people not from church but even christians that grew up in church becomes like that when they lose focus of the life purposes that papa God have given them. don't go down that path because it's painful! i'd gone down there many many times and i know how painful it is. move away from that place. stay in the path that papa God have given you. trust me, life will be more fulfulling, exciting and enjoyable that way. life should be exciting! but exciting not in the sense where sex is a constant feature in it. a exciting life comprises of a daily discovery of yourself and for me, a daily discovery of papa God and receiving of revelations from Him. know yourself. it's important...

anyway, back to the day. jun had reg and jeannie over at her house for dinner and a fordue party! only managed to have one mashmellow. oh well... good for my well-being. left for home at 11.45pm to safely not miss our last bus. it sucks missing the last bus and worst still, you see it leaving. not a good feeling. not at all...

well... you'll ask me how did i get all these theories about life and why is it so much "christian-nised" (if there is such a term). firstly, i'm a christian! secondly, i'll tell you that i lived long enough to know it and also because i bother to process many things that i see and all this i learn also because of the relationship that i have with papa God. i have learnt to always ask papa God what He wants to tell me everyday. it grows out of a love for papa God and He always wants to share secrets about life to His childrens. it is always important to not just live life as it is but to discover it. discovering it will make it more fun and happening. i hope that in your reading of my blog, your thoughts about life will be stirred and the way you live your life will be challenged. i'm not here to tell you that you need Jesus in your life (although i'm willing to share more with you if you want to) but to use this blog to challenge you to know the precious-ness of your life through the daily happenings of my life. so yea, live your life without regrets will be what my old man will tell me and i have come to know the importance of it. so it's totally up to you to choose.

oh man... it's another long one in the end. guess it's the joy of writing. once i start, i can't stop. hope you have enjoyed yourself till this point.

Quote Of The Day
Life: don't just live it. discover it and enjoy it.

Happy National Day! Singapore!

Woke up to a nice National Day! The day where Singapore enters into the 41th year of her existance. Just like israelites entering the promise land after 40 years in the desert, i believe that Singapore is entering into her promised destiny. The antioch of asia. how cool... i could feel the excitement in the spiritual realm. it's just so thick with God's presence.

It was missy krystal butler's birthday today! a big group of us went down to her house to surprise her and also to spend some time with her and her mum. it was so funny! jiahao and i arrived at 2pm and they were already getting ready some stuff to surprise krystal with. balloons were the norm and the flowers were a plus! each of us actually wrote something for her and tied it to a stalk of flower which we placed all over her house. it was such a nice and pleasant view. so sweet... she came home at about 3.30pm and we had a wild time surprising her. oh well... not so much a surprise but i'm sure she was glad that we were there. haha... food was fabulous! (especially the curry tao pok! and the ben & jerry's ice cream too!) it was a nice time. old memorises coming back...

happy birthday krystal!

other crazy times...

oh well the afternoon was spent in krystal's house. a group of us left for justin's house after that. we spent some time doing foosball and justin's taylor. it feels good. jiahao and i sent the girls to marina south (they were going for steamboat buffet with classmates but we wished them luck as by the time we got there, the place was packed with people. not a single sight of a empty table!) and headed home after that.

got home and decided not to play bassie out. (the story goes back to krystal's house where we talked about playing mahjong at the wongs residence.) took a long bus ride to toh yi. watched the ending of the national day parade, played mahjong and had a good zhi char dinner packed from the zhi char store at S11. stayed till 11.30 and caught the second last bus home with xiang.

so the big questions. what's so exciting about today? well, many of us are so caught up with programs that we totally forgot about time with friends isn't focused on the activity but more of the relationships that are being build through it. we always need to understand that although programs are the things that brings people together, we must know that the program is not always the most important. just like when we are young, playing with our own toys are always fun but when friends are included, it's always a memorable one. i get excited whenever i get to spend time with my close friends because those are really fun times! not just because of the things that we do or the program, but because we know that when we are together, there is nothing to hide. you can just be childish for all i care but i'll still love you the same! we all be kids when we are together. it's just so precious. so so so precious.

Quote Of The Day
how you spend your time with your friends determine the level of friendship you have with them.

DAY OF HIS POWER!

today proved to be a significant day... not just for me but for Singapore too...

day started officially @ 2pm today. (not counting the waking up @10am to watch "meet the fockers") went to class and got ready to learn some stuff from ms benita. talked about presentation and how to present ourselves during presentation and interviews. then she went into the whole life purpose talk and talked about how we should choose our career wisely and that we should pursue our dreams and interests rather than trying to earn the bucks. it was out of the world! on the day where the 40 days fast was suppose to end, ms benita actually talk about life purpose. now i'm hearing what God is saying to me! she is cool! follow my dreams! fulfill my passion....

anyway, class ended at 4.45pm and me, eddie and jas headed down to city hall. (we spent 20mins at the queenstown station waiting for jas...) had dinner at BK and off i went to indoor stadium for "day of His power prayer" meeting held by love singapore. a finale of the 40 days fast, it was a significant time of prayer and intercessions. there was 3 different waves of prayer and intercessions with a grand finale. the whole indoor stadium was packed with prayer warriors. it was cool... real cool... worship was led by the Joshua 21 team with our dear mr wong as one of the backup singers. he did a one verse solo of "take me deeper".

worshipping with our handphones...

First Wave...

we had a time of praying for consecration , communion and then revival prayers for singapore. the communion pack was so funny. too bad i didn't have a picture of it.

Second Wave...

then we watch a video and pastor lawrence khong came up and led us in prayers for the nations in 4 different arenas. (Church, Government, Marketplace and Media) the things that they were praying for was exactly the ones that i wrote in yesterday's post. i am amazed by the power of God. i can feel it coming back. he also had prophetic words for Singapore. we had a good time declaring the name of the Lord at the end of this wave.

Third Wave...

third wave began with pastor eugene seow challenging us to give radically and big to the Lord. one thing that he said that really made my day was "hope is when we live the dream of God out". it was so clear in defining the term hope. now i understand that the only hope that we have is to dream God's dreams. only way that we can receive hope! i am blown away but the things that God is teaching me today. then pastor rick seaward came up to lead us to pray for Singapore and then the nations. as usual, the final was left to the most important nation. East Timor. spent the last bit of it praying for East Timor.

Grand Finale

the finale was a significant time. it started with a young girl singing "it takes only a sparks" and her leading the whole stadium in a declaration of faith. it was such a power time of declaring God's power in Singapore. significant for Singapore as she enters into the ending hours of a 40 years journey. Then pastor eugene seow came up again and this time, he hit the bull's eye. he felt the Lord wanting Singapore to come back to being a child and to be childlike! Ouch! pain! but worth it... it confirmed the purpose of this blog. share on how to be a child and childlike at heart.

eunice and sheena
jiahao, chen hwa and william

i met this two girls from St hilda's church where i was sitting and had a good time praying with them. oh by the way, their names are eunice and sheena. (hope i spell it correctly!) both of them are studying in NUS' Arts. apparently eunice's grand parents are from our very own kum yan cantonese worship. small world or rather God appointed. i saw how kum yan is being used in blessing the older generations.

mr cornelius quek... going back in 2 days time...

once again, i had time to catch up with some people and it was nice. nice to see jennifer and john, gary and joanna, kelvin (the guitarist) and cornelius again. found out that cornelius is going back to the states to finish his last one year of seminary. bless you bro!

adicolor? pirated?

saw this on jo's belt and it was so funny. i asked her if it's a pirated belt from china but apparently it's actually limited edition from adidas. (maybe i'm being a mountain turtle) costed $39 from city hall. haha... oh well... it just remind me of brands from china like rien bao (reebok) or qiao dan (jordan). hahaha... old memories...

after the prayer meeting, went to lavander foodcourt to have supper with ian, joel, joanne, beatrice, jakins, noelle, queenie, keith and jael but not before going to geylang (our inital choice but it was just too crowded and hard to find parking) and then jian tao jian (it was closed). it was crazy! hahaha... had our dose of our favorite wanton noodle and the pancake. good food alway satisfy! thank You papa God for giving us the choice of choosing our food.

i thank papa God for the things that He shown me today. now i am more than ready to do the will of papa God and the passions that He have given me. i am ready to run the race again. now i want to run it like a marathon runner, not a sprinter. i am going to persever all the way till the will and dreams of God is fulfilled in my life.

By the time i got home, it was 12.30am. long day but important...

Quote Of The Day
Be a child and live like one. dream like a child and you will soar. hope is when we live God's dream out.

mondays blue? no way...

well... as usual, people will ask if i ever get the mondays blue... well my answer is yes! everyone gets it but what's different is how you deal with it... for me, i chose to live with it and rather to sulk, i'll be happy! it's perceptions... don't let emotions control you and be a slave to it but you control your own emotions. well, i'm not telling you to be fake or to put on a emotional mask here... but it's more of not letting emotions overrun your life and rule it...

anyway, it was the usual mdis style school day with half the class missing and with another one quarter having their own conversations. morning was filled with laughters and joy because of the comical lecturer we have. he is just so hilarious! he acts a bit girly but i don't think he is gay. well somehow, i guess he is more attach to the feminine side of his hormones... afternoon was the usual confrontation with mr wolverine... but he was on the quiet side today. guess wolves have their off days too... hahaha! evening was spent playing tennis @ NUS.

came home from tennis and was feeling a little tired but decided that i should write the blog, come online for awhile and then go off to watch a movie on my lappy. happened to watch the new channel 8 drama serial and realised how much the culture have changed. the serials nowadays talks about how to pick up girls, marry and divorce if it doesn't work out... where has the moral values, that Singapore once lived under, gone to? after watching it, i was so disturbed in the spirit! this is the kind of values that our next generation is being brought up with! Singapore need to come back to the foundational values that we were established on since the founding of our nation. kids shouldn't be brought up with these kinds of values. i cannot imagine the kind of youths that we will have in 5 - 10 years time. we need to pray! we need to intercede! we need to stand in the gap! sow into the next generation...

if you are a christian and you are reading this, just spend 10 mins praying for the youths of Singapore and the next generation that is coming up...
Pray for...
1. God to send His angels to protect the youths of Singapore from all these ungodly values.
2. God to redeem the entertainment arena of Singapore.
3. directors and actors to be raised up to produce show with good moral values.
4. youths from churches will rise up to their call and be a light in their schools and among their friends. (they are the very people who can actually reach out to the youths in the streets, they will redeem their own generation.)

God hears every prayer and especially generation redeeming prayers... so if you think that your prayers are not important, you are wrong! the prayers of every saints will be gathered and put into a incense bowl and when it overflows, the blessing of God will flow into the nations! so pray! start praying!

tomorrow is the day of His power prayer meeting at the indoor stadium. i want to go and see how God will change Singapore. i am excited... i am ready...

Quote Of The Day

you deserve to choose and set your own culture.

p/s: sorry... no pictures today... nothing exciting to take anyway... smile!

finally... it's over...

today was a good day.... it was a time of release and rejourney back to being the person that i am...

day started with lunch with pa. we had lunch at the usual place and i filled myself up with my favorite pork chop... haha... nice and good...

reached church at 12.30 to get ready for the "meeting". it was nervous at the start but guess God came to guide me and it was releasing. met ms A at dome and we talked. talked about everything that i felt and finally, i got to say what i waited to say for the past 1 month plus. thankfully it didn't turn out bad but rather it was smooth and clear cut. we are friends and that's all about it. no more hiding and trying to figure out if there is anything going on. shiok! time to move on to do what i need to do... worship here i come.... by the time we were done, it was 2pm. rushed back to church for service.

ian spoke today and totally redefined my understanding of papa God's love for me. now i understand why papa God have to keep His blessings away from us because He knows that unless we reached that level where we will appreciate the blessings, we will not enjoy it. thank You papa God! i love You! just like how a child always wants more sweet but never thought of the effects of it. how the sweet actually cause tooth decay. the child just concentrates on getting the sweet and eating the sweet but never learned to enjoy the sweet. it's only when we grow up where we learn how to enjoy sweet and knowing that eating 1 sweet can actually satisfy one person already. haha...

just before the worship started

went to festival of praise after service. it was a real good time worshipping with other brothers and sisters from the church of Singapore.

the ccc band...

it was a blast! the band from CCC (Christian City Church) Sydney Australia was so happening! once again, i felt like i'm back to the old times when i was younger and able to jump up and down! haha... it felt really good! it was a original worship from down under! haha! way to go aussies!

mr don moen's worship

then we had mr don moen to lead us in another worship with some old hits! haha... it was really powerful... i missed all the old songs and it really spoke so much to me! i saw the heart of don moen. how he leads worship with a heart of a child wanting to give everything to papa God. he was just so cool and so peaceful and when he starts singing, everyone just listen and quieten down. it was just so much of God in him and so much adoration for papa God. another thing to mention is the band! they are just so so so so so so so good! they gel so well and understand each other so well. the true model of a modern worship band. let's go ky! time to move up the bar!

i really felt so good today! it wasn't like a sad day for me because above all things, i got to move on in my life and that's what i have been waiting for the last 2 years! it's just so releasing and free to experience it now! i thank papa God for giving me the go ahead to talk to ms A today! i'm just so glad that everything is over now! i'm just waiting for God's call to move and off i will go! i want to soar with Him! above the storm i will soar with Him! papa God... it's my turn now....

Fulfilling Saturday.... as usual...

once again... the saturday started @ 8am... went for the usual saturday soccer @ NUS with the guys and tiring was the word to describe it. we play under the blistering sun for 2 hours and it really killed us! it was just pure torturing. lunch was settled at our new hangout place... NUS arts canteen! the food was fanstastic but the price was the main attraction. it's so cheap that i felt like i'm back in my old primary school! anyway, she came today and left after awhile.

went back to church after that. jason, me, ben wu, merv, lionel and kevin decided to go to macs to chill out and have sundaes. haha... good chilling guys... went back to church after that to play with the english worship team. haha... it was fun...

spent 1/2 hour on the train ride to woodlands just sleeping. haha... the ride was really funny. the girl that was sitting beside me fell asleep and had that jerking motion going on whenever she almost lean on me. it's was just super funny! haha... she did that all the way from somerset mrt till woodlands mrt. wahahaha... well... went down to woodlands carepoint to teach guitar playing. my monthly commitment...

went for dinner with jiahao, jason, alwyn, ben wu and reg @ tiong bahru! hahaha... had lor mee, lor mai kai, fishball, beef hor fun, char kway teow, duck rice, ice kachang, fried rice... filling!!!! hahaha... well reg bought me a pack of indo mee... hahaha... funny...

well... again, we talked about miscommunication that happens when issues are not addressed. many times, miscommunication happens because one party assume that things are alright or settled without consulting the other party. that's where the communication breaks down. assuming is always the easiest way out but we never realise that it's actually the start of many problems to come. just like how people always assume someone is with another person just because they are always together. these are the scary people. they don't ask you but in their hearts, they already categorize you based on what they see on the outside. so never never assume things until you clarify. it will help you lots in your life. don't be too assuming...

just a preview of what we had...

Quote Of The Day
Never assume anything until you clarify with that person. It's not alway the same as you see on the outside

Friday...

haha... today started with the worst of the worst... went to school and realised that i actually don't have class in the afternoon because my tutorial is actually next week and that the morning class was just a short one. finally got my TDMC project on the way... i'm going to be doing the israel's attack on lebanon but on aspects of broadcast media. going to be challenging. videos again... oh mine... haha... ended up going for the afternoon class cause i had nothing to do. oh well... but managed to talk to dana, hazel and michelle! (haha! come think about it, it's really the first time i'm talking to michelle.) realised many people actually reads my blog! haha... my purpose is achieved. hazel asked me what i meant in my blog and turned out that it was actually a misinterpretation of her blog or in actual fact, she wrote in a wrong way. oh well, still it doesn't affect what i wrote in my blog.

anyway didn't do much and ended up in town again with jiewei, rasul, marcus and his friends. along the way came theresa and hyde. jiewei wanted to cut his hair and made 7 of us wait outside for him while he cut his hair. (i left halfway to go meet someone. wonder how his hair turned out...) it's just crazy going out with them everytime. it's like a bunch of kids running wild in the playground. haha!

it was to church for living room prayer and it was such a refreshing time. refreshing time of connecting back to the singapore call. a refreshing time to reconnecting back to the family. prayed for singapore and all, the 7 arenas.

anyway, just realised that there is so much backstabbing in class and it's just scary! school started only for 4 months and so much things have happened. this is the kind of things that i'm talking about! a child grows up and along the way, picks up so much insecurities and pain, all thanks to things like that! throw it away man... in the end, what matters most is whether you believe in yourself and as long as you believe in yourself and know yourself, other people's opinions doesn't matter! why spend so much time on trying to get people on your side when you know that the same people can also do the same thing to you? why bother? be yourself and if people accept you, they will be around you. look for friends that will last a lifetime rather than the temporary. it's not worth it. friends are suppose to be lifelong. it's that kind of friendship that will bring you through life. friends that are always ready to listen to you and advice you on thing even when it seem to hurt with the kind of advice that comes out of tough love. friends aint there to make you feel good. they are there to make sure you are on the right track and living your life purpose out. another aspect of being childlike is to have the maturity to be friends with people but when times where pain and hurts ae involved, you are able to talk it out and not "don't friend you liao!" kind of respond. so choose because you have the right to choose!

Quote Of the Day
Choose your friends wisely. it's those, who are willing to stand with you in times of pain and hurts, that will last a lifetime.

Stay Home Thursday...

today's a stay home day for me. one whole week of being out of the house every day makes this day even more important and significant. important because i really need to be alone and to to do my stuff. significant because although i'm going out with my classmates everyday, i still am not caught in that cycle of having to go out everyday.

woke up @ 11.30am. needed to rest from yesterday's battering from soccer and going out. it was a good rest. decide to wash my boots and to pack up my messy table. (i dislike things to be messy but due to school, it was inevitable.) whenever i study, my table will be so messy but always didn't have the strength to clear up after because i always head to bed immediately or at least after i do my quiet time. finally did it today and satisfaction was the word to describe my feeling after that. spent some time talking to people on msn and hazelles was one of those that i talked to. read her blog and got some revelations! haha! oh well.. that's me... i always look, watch and then process.

my clean and tidy table... finally...

my soccer boots... once again shiny and clean...
with no funky smell from yesterday's mud...

read hazel's blog and saw some of her feelings. (don't worry hazel. i'm not criticizing you. it's my personal thoughts. it's something that i had gone through too. i think you are bold to even write it in your blog). i saw how a relationship that didn't work out would often result in something that wasn't even suppose to be there in the first place. how a action can be interpreted in such a way. now i understand why papa God gave us the Holy Spirit. so that we can see in the spiritual and be guided even in such things. even as a child, many times the way we interpret message is by how we feel or what experiences we have with the source. like a child, who had a bad experience with chilli, will alway refuse to take anything with chilli in it or anything that has the word in it. like chilli soup from dan ryan isn't spicy at all but because of the word chilli being part of the name, it will alway be avoided by the child. so in the same way, any actions towards the person that you have a failed relationship with will also be interpreted in the negative way. any mention of that name will trigger off a long list of hurts that is hidden somewhere in the heart. the best way to get rid of this is to give it all to papa God. papa God will always be there... always waiting for us to give all our pains to Him.

had dinner around 8 plus... dinner was the normal mixed veg rice from the coffee shop downstair. i had rice and my sis had porridge... the teochew porridge kind. haha... good dinner and just totally filling. haha...

the dinner that me and my sis had...

see! this is the kind of dinner that i'm so used to when i was young. chinese food and all. now, it's the normal burgers and fries or the frequent carbonara. i used to be excited when i was young when it comes to dinner. it was the time where i get to eat my mum's home cooked food and nothing beats that! i remember that when i was in primary school, i always wanted the school bus driver to drive faster because i was getting excited to eat the food that my mum would prepare for dinner. the soups and especially the soya sauce chicken and the nonya tao pok... yum yum... haha... but now, because of so much commitments outside of family, dinner was a rarity, limited only to occassional sundays or chinese new year. i miss it so much. tried to come back for dinner more often on sundays but somehow, always ended up eating outside with friends. the moment we grow up, dinner with family becomes secondary and friends becomes first. why? dinner with friends are more important now. oh well, wish i can go back to being a child and rush back home for dinner everyday. haha... i love mummy's food! sorry mummy... thank you mummy for always cooking for the family even when you don't feel like it. *smuck!

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you choose what you want to see or hear. choose the better feeling one.

ohhh... what a day...

woke up this morning from a hangover of yesterday's outing with jason and jiahao. we were talking at the top of mount faber and it lasted till 2.30am! haha... as usual, it was the common topic and the hastening of my actions. it will be this sunday...

refused to wake up till the 3rd snoozing of my phone alarm and struggled my way to the toilet. bathe and headed for school. today was going to be a tiring day. the group decided to play soccer after school with some of the guys from the new mass comm class that just started. played awhile in the downpour of singapore's finest rain and then mr sunny decided to get out of his house and stay there for awhile. the other team was good but arrogant. the usual young and rash, full of tricks... well my group was beaten 10-6. it was a race to 10 goals. anyway, it was the aftermath in the shower room that was going to be the climax. the moment we went into the shower room, it was no holds bar for all the talks. complaints of bad tackles and unsportmanlike behaviors filled the air. it was crazy man... anyway, alvin came to me while i was gel-ing my hair and made a remark. "you from church one right? the way i see you play and talk, i know liao. i was like that last time too." oh man! i was like shock! now i understand why papa God had to take me out of playing for school to teach me this lesson so that this moment can happen. i was so amazed. it was my kairos moment. thank You papa God for doing this. i give You all the praises!

many times, like kids, we don't understand why our parents would make us do something that we don't like or have no interest in or worst still, take the very thing that brings us joy away from us. but along the way of growing up, we slowly see how those moments actually allows us to be moulded in a certain way which helped us whe we grow up. many of us who experience a childhood of having to fend of ourselves will grow up being a strong in will person but tagging along lots of hurts and pain along with it. this is where we need to know how give all our hurts and pain to papa God and keep the character of the strong will that is submitted to papa God.

anyway, back to the day...
went to town after soccer with marcus, jiewei, rasul, alvin, isaak and danny because they wanted to watch "thank you for smoking". we headed down to meridan for lunch first before going to PS to catch the movie. didn't stay for the movie because i realised that i was too tired and i might just fall alseep in the cinema. left for home after they went into the cinema with danny. (he was going to the same busstop) as usual, slept the whole of the journey back home in the nice comfy seat at the corner. (once again, it was one of those waking up just before your stop kind of sleep. somebody, please find out why this will happen!) got home and decided to start writing this blog entry since basketball is cancelled tonight due to the living room prayer meeting.

anyway, good news... classmates are beginning to open up to me. i am talking to more people now than the last two terms... hurray! more to come!

too lazy to wash my boots and clean up my table... think i'll do it tomorrow afternoon. just want to chill tonight and enjoy this quiet moment...

p/s: no pictures today because of my laziness and tiredness...

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you might not know why your parents are putting you through all these pains but one day you will understand that it's for your good and will guide you a long way in your adult life.

happening tuesday afternoon...

it's another school day with lots of happenings. firstly, it was like a first time i talked to baohui and hazel and dana and theresa. oh my... it was like a sudden thingy. haha... anyway, class was normal and nothing special happened during class... boring...

anyway, a group of us (me, jiewei, rasul, hazel, isaak, cass, dan, dave, khairul, baohui and hyde) went out after class to town for lunch and to hang out. was suppose to go to far east plaza for lunch but instead ended up at republic foodcourt. (sorry khai... really it was not me!) we had lunch @ republic and actually saw auntie sally having lunch there with her friends. as usual, north india cruisine... haha... oh well... we had lunch and slack there for awhile before heading down to spinelli at heeren. well, i feel like i'm back to the secondary school life again. hanging out in town after school... haha... feeling young again!

this is my expensive north indian meal... $10! ouch!

well... we sat at spinelli for awhile and lots of topics on sex! somehow, these guys always go into this topic quite often! maybe because of cass presence... oh man, it's was just so stupid... every comment, every joke and thought just revolve around it. well that's the singapore youth for you... apparently everyone is so open to talk about it that it's uncool to not be talking about it. well i guess due to the influence of the US culture that is currently invading singapore, somehow the foul talks came along with it and singaporean kids are fast in pickng it up. anyway, nothing here to delittle the youth of singapore but i think we need to understand our own culture and not be influence by the other countries. stay true to our own identity and don't let them shape ours... our thoughts have changed from the young innocent minds to one that is filled with thoughts of sex and violence and many other things. well... that's how the world have changed. God intended sex to be fulfilling within the boundaries of a marriage but mankind corrupted it and changed the initial meaning of sex and made pre-marital sex (sex outside marriage) to be cool and satisfying. i thank God for Focus on the Family for being insistant in their stand of no sex outside marriage and for them to go into school to teach and educate young people about it. i pray that God will open even more doors for them to be able to penetrate into more schools and organisations to educate the people on pre-marital sex.

anyway, back to the day...

decide to leave and head home @ 4pm after me and dan had enough of things. (dan, you know what... chill...) slept the whole journey on the bus. (have you ever wonder why we are able to wake up just before our stop? i'm still trying to figure it out!)

going to meet up with jiahao and jason to chill out. the throne zone guys.

chill...

school day monday... (new photos added!)

once again. day started @ 9am for the first lesson of the week. dynamics of mass comm lecture. haha... it was a fun-filled lecture. the lecturer was just so hilarious. all of us wondered if he's actually gay? he acts like one and talk almost like one and worst still, today he was taunting daryl all the way!(maybe he likes daryl?) school is just making my life more exciting as the days passed. it was crazy! as usual, techniques of professional speaking and writing class was a clash with wolverine... apparently he thinks that all of us are purposely trying to make his life difficult. somehow, he doesn't look past the fact that it's because of what he's doing that makes us wanna disturb his class even more. well, i'm just trying to get out of his way as much as possible. had my first encounter with nicole and dana. haha. they can really talk! saw the way they talk to g ho and they just don't stop. oh man! don't understand them. well guess guys are not suppose to understand the things that girls does. passed tokyo drift from my lappy to her new sony vaio lappy. cool pink lappy. haha.

anyway, it was crazy going out with the guys after school. me, jiewei, marcus, rasul, alvin and jj headed for town after deciding to go for dinner after school. from a massive group, it became only the 6 of us in the end after people decided to play us out and hop on the school's bus service heading for the mrt. (playout guys... dan, hazel... watch out!) anyway, we headed down to town and had dinner at a muslim restaurant @ far east plaza after deciding to watch a movie. apparently, we watch a chinese movie with rasul around. from planning to watch a smoking show, we decided to watch Dragon Tiger Gate. it was just a stupid choice! the whole show just didn't have a plot and it's just people beating the crap out of people. haha! just totally senseless. oh yah! saw asty, julia and a friend at lido just when we are about to get into the cinema. they went to watch "the lake house". hah! another one...

gay boys in the making...

cute boy having cute signals...

oh well, by the time we finished the show and decided to go home, it was around 10pm. took bus 124 from far east plaza and started to watch 15 (a singapore gangster show)on my lappy which i got from daryl's harddisk. it's just stupid. thinking of the things that singapore's young people's are into. just stupid. but i guess it correctly depict the life of a singaporean teen of the street growing up. things that they are involved in. oh man...

jiewei headbanging himself against the bus ad...

many times, alot of us are forced to grow up really fast cause of the situation either at home or the environment around us. many times, we don't get to enjoy the kind of childhood that one should get to have and we miss out on being the real person we should be. having said that, i also acknowledge that some people also don't grow up and because of that, depend on other people too much or excessively. These people usually grow up with the illusion that everything will be smooth sailing and when faced with a problem, just totally freak out or give up on life. Being able to be like a child and being a child is totally different. Being a child would often means the inability to decide on their own and rely on others to decide for them. But being like a child would actually allow the person to enjoy the freedom of being a child (meaning being carefree etc.) while being able to effectively decide for themselves whether the things that they are doing is proper for the occassion. so i guess that's where the fine thin line of being childish and childlike distinct itself. so ask yourself today, are you childlike? or are you just plain childish?

QUOTE OF THE DAY
Are you childish or childlike? Take your pick. It will determine your friends and the life that you are going to live.

Sunday... (new pictures added!)

hmm... no photos today cause the camera i was using didn't come with a sync cable. (thanks alwyn, for lending me your cam...) so pictures for today will come on hopefully by tomorrow.

9.00am
it was combined service today with the english congregation cause of mission month. had a speaker who served in papau new guinea as a missionary to share on the word. weird thing was that although he's indian, he didn't have the normal accent of an indian. he spoke like a typical chinese singaporean. haha... it was weird!

11.30am
went with korean sharon, jasmine and crystal for lunch at marina square's carls junior. it was a blast! filled my stomach with a famous star (a burger) and chilli fries! i was so full that i didn't want to get out of my seat at the end. haha! fatty!!! oh well, went to walk around marina square after that. saw a really nice pair of harvi but didn't get it. too ex! wait for sale...


anyway, managed to share some of my thoughts on being a child with the the girls i went lunch with. it was so fun being able to tell people what your thoughts on life are. well, i hope it was fun for them. hahaha... we talked and jasmine made a remark that when someone is older, like say 70, they will start acting like kids. i realised it's because they have gone through life and realise being a kid is the most fun time they had in their life! like many of us who sits around and talk, we usually talk about things that happened when we are kids, like having our favourite ice-cream, playing catching...

2.00pm
went for worship team meeting. haha... it was a good time of sharing. managed to share some of my thoughts on yc worship. stayed behind to jam till around 7.

7.00pm
went for dinner with xiang, jiahao, sam, reg, crystal and bas. cafe cartel was the venue. st. louis ribs rocks! killed me totally. i was a dead cow after that! haha!

alright... that's all for today. tomorrow is another school day and as a child, i need to pack my bag! hahaha! remember... be a kid...

Quote for today

Live like a child now because you will realise that being a kid is the most fun time you had when you reach the age of 80 and you look back at your life.

a very very very long day....

today was a long day...

8.45am: soccer at NUS...

people coming in at 9am...

presenting to mr kwa his birthday present

goal celebration...

the new people that came to join us the first time...

it was a fun time. in total, we had 21 people coming to play soccer today! woah, amazing... some of the new people that joined us today was alvin, shawn, luke, kevin, daniel, jeremy, anton, justin and jurgen. we played 11 a side for a while but switch to 7 a side after we realised that it's just too crowded to fit so many players on our small makeshift field with our self-improvised goal posts made from leftover pipes from the last church camp games. haha! Overall, it was a good time and we will be playing every week. (hopefully!) played till around 11.30am as some of us had to go for the narnia event @ east coast park...

1.00pm: Narnia Sandcastle Event @ East Coast Park

lunch @ lagoon food centre before the event

the land of narnia...


presenting to you... mr jerry ong...

the group that i did some castle building with...

special mentions to ms smiley crocodile and her "prince"?

the volunteers of red zone which i'm part of...

finally, a picture of a sandcastle...

a picture collage thanks to picassa...

well, here we are again... another narnia event but with less familiar faces from the last event held at orchard. no ms chloe around or crews from the previous narnia show. new faces and new people. with willing hearts to serve but saw theresa and alisa again and also my favourite mr jerry ong! (you rock jerry! good hosting!) learned so much about sandcastle building today. isn't all about putting sands into containers and hitting them out... it's more than that... it about carefully planning the route of your building and more importantly, what you want in your castle. saw so many families today and once again, come back to the basics of this blog. living in a family is not just about problems and more problems, but it's also about having fun together. it's about doing things together and not feeling childish about it. Papas building castles, mamas cheering and helping to touch up on some of the areas, kids as usual are the destroyers (just kidding!) but that's where kids have fun! knocking down castle as though they are giants, walking giants that walk through the land and stamping down everything in their sight! hahaha... that is just kids! that's how they should be. no worries in them, no unhappiness bothering them, just pure fun and joy...

and now... the picture of the day...


another reminder that it's national day! yay! time to celebrate the humble beginnings of our nation and also count the blessings of God on Singapore as we see the growth we had since our humble beginnings... saw this helicopter just flew pass us and above us while we are building our sandcastles! it's just such an awesome sight as the whole beach just looked up and admire the majesty of our nation's flag... one day, it will be us looking up and seeing the glorious splendor of our great God! the event ended around 6 plus and by the time everything is packed up, it was around 8 plus... went for dinner with ben soh and his princess @ lagoon (where else? since it's just right in front of us...) hokkien mee, fried oyster omelette and satay was the dinner menu and not mentioning the usual sugar cane juice that we always have...

shag out...
struggling to keep my eyes open while writing this blog... it was long... long... long... day...

Why? Why senses of a child?

Many people have asked me that question about my blog. Why did i use that as my blog name? Well, the only answer that i come up with is that because that the basic senses that we should have. The senses of a child are joy, happiness, abundance-ness, no worries and have fun! Along the way of growing up, many of us pick up the rest of the senses that we have, like pain, distrust, unwantedness, unwillingness, violence, foul language, insecurity and rejection. These are things which God would not want in our lives. He put us in this world and all He gave us was the 5 senses we were born with but we often unwillingly or unknowingly pick up the rest of our senses which mould our being. All the insecurity that we grow up with, the pain that we experience from relationships, the rejections that we get from our friends, the violence that some of us experience in our family, foul languages that we used to cover our iniquities, are just things that slowly shape our being to be the person that we turn out to be when we grow up. So that's why, sensesofachild is to once again come back to the initial senses that we are born with and being reconcile with those senses.

what's my isaac?

just got back from cell...

tonight's topic was on the "isaac" of our lives. what's the isaac in our lives that we have and how are we living them out right now. (for those who don't know, refer to the bible and read Genesis... it's about Father Abraham having to sacrifice isaac on the mountain) i thought about it and the two isaacs that came out is worship leading and playing the guitar. i have been asking God about when He wants to make His promises come true and i'd come to a conclusion that whether anot if He make it come true doesn't matter anymore, just as long as i live out the worship i have in my life. it's just so amazing how God can use the different things that we go through in our lives to glorify Him, be it the good things or the bad ones. many times we don't understand why God would allow us to go through a bad patch in our lives but to understand His character will totally solve the problem. He is in the business of moulding lives and not making live comfortable. alright, enough of this...

10 things that i want to do before turning 30

1. Serve God full-time
2. Go overseas to study
3. Lead worship at a national event
4. Bungee Jump off Niagara Falls
5. Sky-dive in the skies of China
6. Live in China for 1 year and eat all the jiao zi that i want
7. See my dad accept Christ
8. Release my first worship album
9. Buy my first maton
   
10. Find the love of my life

tomorrow's going to be a long day. soccer in the morning, narnia event from 1pm till 7pm... crazy day! but i enjoy it... haha! lots of pictures to take!!!

Fishing Trip (new photos added!)

Went to bedok jetty on wednesday night to do some fishing with Jiahao, Jason, Eddie, Xiang, Anais, Reggie, Sam and Lionel. I felt like a child the whole night. So exciting and it's just fun to be with close friends hanging out... Didn't catch anything but did catch a beautiful sunrise. Never imagine the sunrise of singapore to be so beautiful. Guess it's the same sun that rises all around the world. Thanks You Daddy God for the beautiful sunrise!!! It was a gift to brighten up my day... but i was tired... real tired after going to school in the morning, meeting in the afternoon, basketball in the evening... slept half the day on thurday but not before watching tokyo drift on my lappy... didn't finish the whole show... fell asleep after awhile... Had a whole day at home. enjoyed the time to be quiet and no distractions at all... I'm enjoying this lonely and quiet time... Is this a sign of being old? getting older and feeling more lethargic... the breaking down of my body in this world...