Stay Home Thursday...

today's a stay home day for me. one whole week of being out of the house every day makes this day even more important and significant. important because i really need to be alone and to to do my stuff. significant because although i'm going out with my classmates everyday, i still am not caught in that cycle of having to go out everyday.

woke up @ 11.30am. needed to rest from yesterday's battering from soccer and going out. it was a good rest. decide to wash my boots and to pack up my messy table. (i dislike things to be messy but due to school, it was inevitable.) whenever i study, my table will be so messy but always didn't have the strength to clear up after because i always head to bed immediately or at least after i do my quiet time. finally did it today and satisfaction was the word to describe my feeling after that. spent some time talking to people on msn and hazelles was one of those that i talked to. read her blog and got some revelations! haha! oh well.. that's me... i always look, watch and then process.

my clean and tidy table... finally...

my soccer boots... once again shiny and clean...
with no funky smell from yesterday's mud...

read hazel's blog and saw some of her feelings. (don't worry hazel. i'm not criticizing you. it's my personal thoughts. it's something that i had gone through too. i think you are bold to even write it in your blog). i saw how a relationship that didn't work out would often result in something that wasn't even suppose to be there in the first place. how a action can be interpreted in such a way. now i understand why papa God gave us the Holy Spirit. so that we can see in the spiritual and be guided even in such things. even as a child, many times the way we interpret message is by how we feel or what experiences we have with the source. like a child, who had a bad experience with chilli, will alway refuse to take anything with chilli in it or anything that has the word in it. like chilli soup from dan ryan isn't spicy at all but because of the word chilli being part of the name, it will alway be avoided by the child. so in the same way, any actions towards the person that you have a failed relationship with will also be interpreted in the negative way. any mention of that name will trigger off a long list of hurts that is hidden somewhere in the heart. the best way to get rid of this is to give it all to papa God. papa God will always be there... always waiting for us to give all our pains to Him.

had dinner around 8 plus... dinner was the normal mixed veg rice from the coffee shop downstair. i had rice and my sis had porridge... the teochew porridge kind. haha... good dinner and just totally filling. haha...

the dinner that me and my sis had...

see! this is the kind of dinner that i'm so used to when i was young. chinese food and all. now, it's the normal burgers and fries or the frequent carbonara. i used to be excited when i was young when it comes to dinner. it was the time where i get to eat my mum's home cooked food and nothing beats that! i remember that when i was in primary school, i always wanted the school bus driver to drive faster because i was getting excited to eat the food that my mum would prepare for dinner. the soups and especially the soya sauce chicken and the nonya tao pok... yum yum... haha... but now, because of so much commitments outside of family, dinner was a rarity, limited only to occassional sundays or chinese new year. i miss it so much. tried to come back for dinner more often on sundays but somehow, always ended up eating outside with friends. the moment we grow up, dinner with family becomes secondary and friends becomes first. why? dinner with friends are more important now. oh well, wish i can go back to being a child and rush back home for dinner everyday. haha... i love mummy's food! sorry mummy... thank you mummy for always cooking for the family even when you don't feel like it. *smuck!

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you choose what you want to see or hear. choose the better feeling one.

ohhh... what a day...

woke up this morning from a hangover of yesterday's outing with jason and jiahao. we were talking at the top of mount faber and it lasted till 2.30am! haha... as usual, it was the common topic and the hastening of my actions. it will be this sunday...

refused to wake up till the 3rd snoozing of my phone alarm and struggled my way to the toilet. bathe and headed for school. today was going to be a tiring day. the group decided to play soccer after school with some of the guys from the new mass comm class that just started. played awhile in the downpour of singapore's finest rain and then mr sunny decided to get out of his house and stay there for awhile. the other team was good but arrogant. the usual young and rash, full of tricks... well my group was beaten 10-6. it was a race to 10 goals. anyway, it was the aftermath in the shower room that was going to be the climax. the moment we went into the shower room, it was no holds bar for all the talks. complaints of bad tackles and unsportmanlike behaviors filled the air. it was crazy man... anyway, alvin came to me while i was gel-ing my hair and made a remark. "you from church one right? the way i see you play and talk, i know liao. i was like that last time too." oh man! i was like shock! now i understand why papa God had to take me out of playing for school to teach me this lesson so that this moment can happen. i was so amazed. it was my kairos moment. thank You papa God for doing this. i give You all the praises!

many times, like kids, we don't understand why our parents would make us do something that we don't like or have no interest in or worst still, take the very thing that brings us joy away from us. but along the way of growing up, we slowly see how those moments actually allows us to be moulded in a certain way which helped us whe we grow up. many of us who experience a childhood of having to fend of ourselves will grow up being a strong in will person but tagging along lots of hurts and pain along with it. this is where we need to know how give all our hurts and pain to papa God and keep the character of the strong will that is submitted to papa God.

anyway, back to the day...
went to town after soccer with marcus, jiewei, rasul, alvin, isaak and danny because they wanted to watch "thank you for smoking". we headed down to meridan for lunch first before going to PS to catch the movie. didn't stay for the movie because i realised that i was too tired and i might just fall alseep in the cinema. left for home after they went into the cinema with danny. (he was going to the same busstop) as usual, slept the whole of the journey back home in the nice comfy seat at the corner. (once again, it was one of those waking up just before your stop kind of sleep. somebody, please find out why this will happen!) got home and decided to start writing this blog entry since basketball is cancelled tonight due to the living room prayer meeting.

anyway, good news... classmates are beginning to open up to me. i am talking to more people now than the last two terms... hurray! more to come!

too lazy to wash my boots and clean up my table... think i'll do it tomorrow afternoon. just want to chill tonight and enjoy this quiet moment...

p/s: no pictures today because of my laziness and tiredness...

QUOTE OF THE DAY
you might not know why your parents are putting you through all these pains but one day you will understand that it's for your good and will guide you a long way in your adult life.

happening tuesday afternoon...

it's another school day with lots of happenings. firstly, it was like a first time i talked to baohui and hazel and dana and theresa. oh my... it was like a sudden thingy. haha... anyway, class was normal and nothing special happened during class... boring...

anyway, a group of us (me, jiewei, rasul, hazel, isaak, cass, dan, dave, khairul, baohui and hyde) went out after class to town for lunch and to hang out. was suppose to go to far east plaza for lunch but instead ended up at republic foodcourt. (sorry khai... really it was not me!) we had lunch @ republic and actually saw auntie sally having lunch there with her friends. as usual, north india cruisine... haha... oh well... we had lunch and slack there for awhile before heading down to spinelli at heeren. well, i feel like i'm back to the secondary school life again. hanging out in town after school... haha... feeling young again!

this is my expensive north indian meal... $10! ouch!

well... we sat at spinelli for awhile and lots of topics on sex! somehow, these guys always go into this topic quite often! maybe because of cass presence... oh man, it's was just so stupid... every comment, every joke and thought just revolve around it. well that's the singapore youth for you... apparently everyone is so open to talk about it that it's uncool to not be talking about it. well i guess due to the influence of the US culture that is currently invading singapore, somehow the foul talks came along with it and singaporean kids are fast in pickng it up. anyway, nothing here to delittle the youth of singapore but i think we need to understand our own culture and not be influence by the other countries. stay true to our own identity and don't let them shape ours... our thoughts have changed from the young innocent minds to one that is filled with thoughts of sex and violence and many other things. well... that's how the world have changed. God intended sex to be fulfilling within the boundaries of a marriage but mankind corrupted it and changed the initial meaning of sex and made pre-marital sex (sex outside marriage) to be cool and satisfying. i thank God for Focus on the Family for being insistant in their stand of no sex outside marriage and for them to go into school to teach and educate young people about it. i pray that God will open even more doors for them to be able to penetrate into more schools and organisations to educate the people on pre-marital sex.

anyway, back to the day...

decide to leave and head home @ 4pm after me and dan had enough of things. (dan, you know what... chill...) slept the whole journey on the bus. (have you ever wonder why we are able to wake up just before our stop? i'm still trying to figure it out!)

going to meet up with jiahao and jason to chill out. the throne zone guys.

chill...

school day monday... (new photos added!)

once again. day started @ 9am for the first lesson of the week. dynamics of mass comm lecture. haha... it was a fun-filled lecture. the lecturer was just so hilarious. all of us wondered if he's actually gay? he acts like one and talk almost like one and worst still, today he was taunting daryl all the way!(maybe he likes daryl?) school is just making my life more exciting as the days passed. it was crazy! as usual, techniques of professional speaking and writing class was a clash with wolverine... apparently he thinks that all of us are purposely trying to make his life difficult. somehow, he doesn't look past the fact that it's because of what he's doing that makes us wanna disturb his class even more. well, i'm just trying to get out of his way as much as possible. had my first encounter with nicole and dana. haha. they can really talk! saw the way they talk to g ho and they just don't stop. oh man! don't understand them. well guess guys are not suppose to understand the things that girls does. passed tokyo drift from my lappy to her new sony vaio lappy. cool pink lappy. haha.

anyway, it was crazy going out with the guys after school. me, jiewei, marcus, rasul, alvin and jj headed for town after deciding to go for dinner after school. from a massive group, it became only the 6 of us in the end after people decided to play us out and hop on the school's bus service heading for the mrt. (playout guys... dan, hazel... watch out!) anyway, we headed down to town and had dinner at a muslim restaurant @ far east plaza after deciding to watch a movie. apparently, we watch a chinese movie with rasul around. from planning to watch a smoking show, we decided to watch Dragon Tiger Gate. it was just a stupid choice! the whole show just didn't have a plot and it's just people beating the crap out of people. haha! just totally senseless. oh yah! saw asty, julia and a friend at lido just when we are about to get into the cinema. they went to watch "the lake house". hah! another one...

gay boys in the making...

cute boy having cute signals...

oh well, by the time we finished the show and decided to go home, it was around 10pm. took bus 124 from far east plaza and started to watch 15 (a singapore gangster show)on my lappy which i got from daryl's harddisk. it's just stupid. thinking of the things that singapore's young people's are into. just stupid. but i guess it correctly depict the life of a singaporean teen of the street growing up. things that they are involved in. oh man...

jiewei headbanging himself against the bus ad...

many times, alot of us are forced to grow up really fast cause of the situation either at home or the environment around us. many times, we don't get to enjoy the kind of childhood that one should get to have and we miss out on being the real person we should be. having said that, i also acknowledge that some people also don't grow up and because of that, depend on other people too much or excessively. These people usually grow up with the illusion that everything will be smooth sailing and when faced with a problem, just totally freak out or give up on life. Being able to be like a child and being a child is totally different. Being a child would often means the inability to decide on their own and rely on others to decide for them. But being like a child would actually allow the person to enjoy the freedom of being a child (meaning being carefree etc.) while being able to effectively decide for themselves whether the things that they are doing is proper for the occassion. so i guess that's where the fine thin line of being childish and childlike distinct itself. so ask yourself today, are you childlike? or are you just plain childish?

QUOTE OF THE DAY
Are you childish or childlike? Take your pick. It will determine your friends and the life that you are going to live.

Sunday... (new pictures added!)

hmm... no photos today cause the camera i was using didn't come with a sync cable. (thanks alwyn, for lending me your cam...) so pictures for today will come on hopefully by tomorrow.

9.00am
it was combined service today with the english congregation cause of mission month. had a speaker who served in papau new guinea as a missionary to share on the word. weird thing was that although he's indian, he didn't have the normal accent of an indian. he spoke like a typical chinese singaporean. haha... it was weird!

11.30am
went with korean sharon, jasmine and crystal for lunch at marina square's carls junior. it was a blast! filled my stomach with a famous star (a burger) and chilli fries! i was so full that i didn't want to get out of my seat at the end. haha! fatty!!! oh well, went to walk around marina square after that. saw a really nice pair of harvi but didn't get it. too ex! wait for sale...


anyway, managed to share some of my thoughts on being a child with the the girls i went lunch with. it was so fun being able to tell people what your thoughts on life are. well, i hope it was fun for them. hahaha... we talked and jasmine made a remark that when someone is older, like say 70, they will start acting like kids. i realised it's because they have gone through life and realise being a kid is the most fun time they had in their life! like many of us who sits around and talk, we usually talk about things that happened when we are kids, like having our favourite ice-cream, playing catching...

2.00pm
went for worship team meeting. haha... it was a good time of sharing. managed to share some of my thoughts on yc worship. stayed behind to jam till around 7.

7.00pm
went for dinner with xiang, jiahao, sam, reg, crystal and bas. cafe cartel was the venue. st. louis ribs rocks! killed me totally. i was a dead cow after that! haha!

alright... that's all for today. tomorrow is another school day and as a child, i need to pack my bag! hahaha! remember... be a kid...

Quote for today

Live like a child now because you will realise that being a kid is the most fun time you had when you reach the age of 80 and you look back at your life.

a very very very long day....

today was a long day...

8.45am: soccer at NUS...

people coming in at 9am...

presenting to mr kwa his birthday present

goal celebration...

the new people that came to join us the first time...

it was a fun time. in total, we had 21 people coming to play soccer today! woah, amazing... some of the new people that joined us today was alvin, shawn, luke, kevin, daniel, jeremy, anton, justin and jurgen. we played 11 a side for a while but switch to 7 a side after we realised that it's just too crowded to fit so many players on our small makeshift field with our self-improvised goal posts made from leftover pipes from the last church camp games. haha! Overall, it was a good time and we will be playing every week. (hopefully!) played till around 11.30am as some of us had to go for the narnia event @ east coast park...

1.00pm: Narnia Sandcastle Event @ East Coast Park

lunch @ lagoon food centre before the event

the land of narnia...


presenting to you... mr jerry ong...

the group that i did some castle building with...

special mentions to ms smiley crocodile and her "prince"?

the volunteers of red zone which i'm part of...

finally, a picture of a sandcastle...

a picture collage thanks to picassa...

well, here we are again... another narnia event but with less familiar faces from the last event held at orchard. no ms chloe around or crews from the previous narnia show. new faces and new people. with willing hearts to serve but saw theresa and alisa again and also my favourite mr jerry ong! (you rock jerry! good hosting!) learned so much about sandcastle building today. isn't all about putting sands into containers and hitting them out... it's more than that... it about carefully planning the route of your building and more importantly, what you want in your castle. saw so many families today and once again, come back to the basics of this blog. living in a family is not just about problems and more problems, but it's also about having fun together. it's about doing things together and not feeling childish about it. Papas building castles, mamas cheering and helping to touch up on some of the areas, kids as usual are the destroyers (just kidding!) but that's where kids have fun! knocking down castle as though they are giants, walking giants that walk through the land and stamping down everything in their sight! hahaha... that is just kids! that's how they should be. no worries in them, no unhappiness bothering them, just pure fun and joy...

and now... the picture of the day...


another reminder that it's national day! yay! time to celebrate the humble beginnings of our nation and also count the blessings of God on Singapore as we see the growth we had since our humble beginnings... saw this helicopter just flew pass us and above us while we are building our sandcastles! it's just such an awesome sight as the whole beach just looked up and admire the majesty of our nation's flag... one day, it will be us looking up and seeing the glorious splendor of our great God! the event ended around 6 plus and by the time everything is packed up, it was around 8 plus... went for dinner with ben soh and his princess @ lagoon (where else? since it's just right in front of us...) hokkien mee, fried oyster omelette and satay was the dinner menu and not mentioning the usual sugar cane juice that we always have...

shag out...
struggling to keep my eyes open while writing this blog... it was long... long... long... day...

Why? Why senses of a child?

Many people have asked me that question about my blog. Why did i use that as my blog name? Well, the only answer that i come up with is that because that the basic senses that we should have. The senses of a child are joy, happiness, abundance-ness, no worries and have fun! Along the way of growing up, many of us pick up the rest of the senses that we have, like pain, distrust, unwantedness, unwillingness, violence, foul language, insecurity and rejection. These are things which God would not want in our lives. He put us in this world and all He gave us was the 5 senses we were born with but we often unwillingly or unknowingly pick up the rest of our senses which mould our being. All the insecurity that we grow up with, the pain that we experience from relationships, the rejections that we get from our friends, the violence that some of us experience in our family, foul languages that we used to cover our iniquities, are just things that slowly shape our being to be the person that we turn out to be when we grow up. So that's why, sensesofachild is to once again come back to the initial senses that we are born with and being reconcile with those senses.

what's my isaac?

just got back from cell...

tonight's topic was on the "isaac" of our lives. what's the isaac in our lives that we have and how are we living them out right now. (for those who don't know, refer to the bible and read Genesis... it's about Father Abraham having to sacrifice isaac on the mountain) i thought about it and the two isaacs that came out is worship leading and playing the guitar. i have been asking God about when He wants to make His promises come true and i'd come to a conclusion that whether anot if He make it come true doesn't matter anymore, just as long as i live out the worship i have in my life. it's just so amazing how God can use the different things that we go through in our lives to glorify Him, be it the good things or the bad ones. many times we don't understand why God would allow us to go through a bad patch in our lives but to understand His character will totally solve the problem. He is in the business of moulding lives and not making live comfortable. alright, enough of this...

10 things that i want to do before turning 30

1. Serve God full-time
2. Go overseas to study
3. Lead worship at a national event
4. Bungee Jump off Niagara Falls
5. Sky-dive in the skies of China
6. Live in China for 1 year and eat all the jiao zi that i want
7. See my dad accept Christ
8. Release my first worship album
9. Buy my first maton
   
10. Find the love of my life

tomorrow's going to be a long day. soccer in the morning, narnia event from 1pm till 7pm... crazy day! but i enjoy it... haha! lots of pictures to take!!!

Fishing Trip (new photos added!)

Went to bedok jetty on wednesday night to do some fishing with Jiahao, Jason, Eddie, Xiang, Anais, Reggie, Sam and Lionel. I felt like a child the whole night. So exciting and it's just fun to be with close friends hanging out... Didn't catch anything but did catch a beautiful sunrise. Never imagine the sunrise of singapore to be so beautiful. Guess it's the same sun that rises all around the world. Thanks You Daddy God for the beautiful sunrise!!! It was a gift to brighten up my day... but i was tired... real tired after going to school in the morning, meeting in the afternoon, basketball in the evening... slept half the day on thurday but not before watching tokyo drift on my lappy... didn't finish the whole show... fell asleep after awhile... Had a whole day at home. enjoyed the time to be quiet and no distractions at all... I'm enjoying this lonely and quiet time... Is this a sign of being old? getting older and feeling more lethargic... the breaking down of my body in this world...